3:45 pm
That's the problem I have nothing left. You think to yourself. The monitor goes to one continuous beep. He starts CPR.
3:55 pm
You pull up to the hospital and he is still doing CPR. You see your family all gather into the hospital waiting room all in tears. How are they going to tell a 6 year old you committed suicide. The next person to come in is your best friend. She's sobbing she's hyperventilating. Your parents sit and wonder how they could have missed it. They are beating themselves up.
3:59
The doctors are exhausted from trying to save your life. The doctor takes off his cap and says "time of death 4:04 pm. He walks out of the room and slams the door to go talk to your family.
4:15 pm
The doctor comes out. We did everything we could. Your mother drops and screams. Your best friend who just calmed down is on the floor sobbing. Your dad just stands there. Your older sister starts to cry thinking all of this was her fault. Your little brother sits there confused on why every one is crying.
4:51 pm
Your little brother still confused goes up to the doctor and says I don't understand when is she coming back out? The doctor looks at your mother, she nods walks over to your brother and then wraps her arms around him and says I'm sorry bud she not coming home she is an angel now.
6:37 pm
It's been two hours since your death. Your family has just returned from the hospital. Your little brother sits on the couch waiting for you to walk through the door. Your older sister sits by your room door sobbing. Your parents. Your parents are heartbroken your dad sits there emotionless holding your sobbing mother.
10:00 am
5 days since you died and your funeral has begun. Everyone telling stories about you how nice you were, how happy you seemed, how they wish they could have helped you. Your little brother sees your body in the casket and shakes you "WAKE UP SISSY!" He screams before they close it for good.
12:22 am
1 week 5 days
A week has passed since your funeral. Your sister sits there emotionless staring at herself I'm the mirror her eyes all red and puffy. She looks down you see what she's looking at a razor the same one you used to end your life. She rolls up her sleeves you see the scars. No. Don't. Please. You think. You reach out to touch her and she breaks down and punches the glass it shatters your mom comes running in broken glass and blood. Her mind flashes back to that dreadful day when you left the world.
12:22 am
1 week 5 days
Your best friend sits at the cemetery laying her head on your headstone looking at the last picture that you took together. She wipes away a tear. "How could you do this to me how could you leave me alone you were my only friend you were my, my person. I can't go through this fight alone" she starts to sob
12:48 am
A trip the the emergency room. The same one you went to your sister is in hysterics they can't calm her down she keeps calling your name "PLEASE COME BACK DONT LEAVE ME" she screams. "I CANT DO THIS ALONE" the doctors now have to sedate her.
4:31 pm
3 weeks 2 days
Your little brother hasn't said anything in weeks. He won't go passed your room or use that bathroom. He won't touch your stuff. And when asked why he just says "when she comes back I don't want her mad at me" he's so innocent and sweet. To bad you ruined him. When told your not coming back he flips and screams "YOU DONT KNOW SHIT" and he's only 6.
3:45 am
1 month 2 weeks 5 days
Your best friend hasn't left her house in a month. She's failing classes and her parents are worried that she is going to end up just like you. Dead a cold rotting body buried 6 feet deep. "Keep your head up kid" is the last thing she said to you and she is beating herself up for it.
So she grabs a paper and pen and begins to write.
