secluded - lashton

chapter 1

Luke's POV

Today we're getting a new band member and to be honest I'm too thrilled about it. I can't even stand the ones I currently have, how am I supposed to deal with another?

Okay that's not entirely true. Michael was my best friend a while back before I shut him out from my life. I felt bad about that especially since he's been acting a little down ever since. I really missed him but I had to keep my distance from anyone who was important to me or else I'd become weak again.

Calum was a different story. Every time he talked I wanted to smash his face in. I don't know what it is but I've never liked that boy. Maybe it's because he's always happy and everyone loves him no matter what. I envy Calum for being so perfect all of the time. I wish I could be like that but instead here I am locked up in my room once again.

Neither of the boys understand why I'm isolating myself from the world. At first I told them I didn't feel well but you can only use that excuse so many times before people become suspicious. The truth is, I was keeping myself from getting attached to someone because eventually they'd leave just like everyone else. I feel like almost everyone knows where I'm coming from because almost everyone has the same problem I do. Apparently not Calum and Michael.

"Luke come downstairs! Ashton is almost here!"

Oh, joy! I rolled my eyes and slumped out of bed, adjusting my ripped skinny jeans and black sweatshirt. I guess I should just suck it up and put on a nice face for the new guy until I can determine his fate. He's either going to be my next victim or ignored like the others but there's only one way to find out.

I groaned and walked slowly down the stairs, coming to the realization I have to socialize which I didn't exactly enjoy doing. I slugged into the kitchen and the 2 boys immediately looked up at me with surprised faces like they didn't expect me to come out of my room.

"What? I can still walk you know," I slightly mumbled to my band mates.

"How would we know that if we never even see you?" Calum said it like he was scared to see how I'd react, and he probably should be.

"Whatever, let's just get this over with," I decided I shouldn't start anything right before a total stranger was going to meet us for the first time. The doorbell rang before anyone could respond and Michael went to answer the door while Calum and I exchanged dirty looks.

Michael came back to the kitchen with an annoyingly happy looking lad. "Okay guys, this is Ashton!" I grunted as he said hello in a cheery voice and suddenly all 3 boys were staring at me, shocked.

Calum broke the silence with, "Anyway, I'm Calum and that's Luke. It's nice to finally meet you. Your room is upstairs if you'd like to put your stuff down in there. Want me to show you to it?"

Ashton nodded quickly and the two disappeared up the steps, just in time for Michael to have a fit. "What the hell was that, huh? Do you even care about this band anymore?"

"If I say yes will you shut up and leave me alone?" I wasn't dealing with his attitude today. I've had enough of this bullshit.

"Why don't you just leave? Get out of all of our lives for the better. Yeah?"

"Ha. Like you don't need me to get you to the top. We both know I'm the one keeping this band afloat and quite honestly I'm only sticking around for the fame."

"Go fuck yourself, Luke. No one wants you here anymore." Ouch. That stung a little.

"Stop acting like I broke up with you or something. You're such a little cry baby, gosh!" I needed to make him feel pain.

"For all I know maybe that's why you shut me out! You're probably in love with me or some sick shit." Okay, that was too far. I told Michael about a year ago that I'm bisexual. I had complete trust in my best friend and knew he wouldn't do anything to betray me. He's never said something like this before and I wanted to punish him for it, for making me embarrassed of what I am.

I marched over to Michael and punched him as hard as I could near his upper cheekbone. I watched as he fell to the floor, clutching his eye. Success.

"Damn it, Luke! What's your problem?"

"What's my problem, Mikey?" I said, putting air quotes around the nickname I used to call him constantly. "My problem is, you just called being gay 'sick shit'. And just incase you were wondering I could never be in love with you, you fat son of a bitch!"

I caught a glimpse of a tear forming in his uninjured eye and smiled proudly. My work here was done. I exited the kitchen and made my way back to my room, slamming the door behind me. Now what was I going to do about "Ashton"...

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I apologize if that was a really short and crappy chapter but this is my first actual fanfic on here so be patient with me! by the way, the songs at the beginning of each chapter aren't necessarily going to relate to anything I'm writing. they might just be songs I'm enjoying at the moment or are stuck in my head. so yeah please vote, comment, fan, do your thing. it's much appreciated, thanks :-)