"home"ophobic // namjin

"dying"

"Hobi. Hey buddy. You don't want to do this to poor Jimin. Do you?"

He chuckled lowly. "He was single. Plus he's hot. Don't tell me you wouldn't hit that?" He motioned towards Jimin.

I couldn't look.

"Siri. Call 911." I whispered into my phone.

"Not so soon, my dear Jin."

Fuck.

"Miss me?" My dad cooed as he walked towards me.

"Why are you here?" I scoffed.

"Broke out. The jail food tastes worst than your moms. And that's saying something."

My dad laughed. Hobi did too.

"Hoseok. You failed me." My father seethed as he changed his direction to walk towards Hoseok. "I said I wanted him killed. But I see he has a beating heart." My father grabbed his chin. He was crying now.

"Say bye bye Jinnie." my dad retrieved his gun from his belt and aimed it at Hobis head.

"WAIT!" I cried as I knelt down to hobis position. "Kill me instead."

"You'd still take a bullet for this boy? He betrayed you. He was going to kill you."

"He could kill everyone I love. But that doesn't change the fact that he's my best friend. That's my problem. I love everyone that hurts me.

Which is why I never told anyone about you or mom."

my father grabbed my head and twisted it towards Hobi.

"Watch him die. That's all I want."

And with that he pulled the trigger.

Ending Hobis life

And giving me another reason to end mine.

The cops came. HAHA I FORGOT SIRI WAS ON. THEY HEARD ALL OF THAT. OKAY OKAY SORRY.

"Jimin. Babes." I hugged the crying boy.

"I never knew what it felt like. I deserved that." He sobbed out.

"Oh hell no. No one deserves that. Especially not you. You're hurt. I'm hurt. But we can fix eachother." He smiled at me. And for the first time in a long time, I smiled back.

"JIN!" someone grabbed me from behind.

"STRANGER DANGER! HOBI SAV- hobi..."

Welp. I was waiting for reality. Hey. How ya doin.

"My best friend is dead. Holy fuck. Oh god it's my fault. Yoongi was my fault. Hobi was my fault. I pushed away my brother. Namjoon. Why can't I breathe. Jimin help." I reached out blindly for Jimin. My head was spinning and my vision was blurry.

"Jin Jin. It's me Namjoon. Can you hear me? JIN?" And that's all I remember, before I passed out in Namjoons arms.

...................................

I woke up three hours later. In Namjoons house.

Namjoon came in and explained everything to me.

Hobi was sadly dead.
Jimin was at home crying his eyes out.

"INVITE MY POOR BEAN OVER!"

"Jin I-"

"Give me your phone."

Well no he's coming over.

And my dad was in jail for life.

Jiyung found a new family to live with and he started to keep in touch

But my favorite part?
I live with my boyfriend now.

That's right. Boyfriend. Mine. Back off.

Oh and my letters?

I gave everyone there's. Except Tae and Kookie.

There's a reason Namjoon didn't get one and you'll see why later on.

I decided on a date as well.

October 10.

Today is September 30.

I'm going to make my last days count.

"Jimin. I have a question..." Jimin smiled.

"Yes hyung?"

"Everyone I gave a letter too has had something happen to them. Hobi got killed. You got raped. Yoongi died. Should I give Tae and Kookie there letters? What if it splits them up?"

"Hyung. Jungkook and Tae would rather understand why you killed your self rather than living with the guilt."

"Thank you Jimin."

I had sent Namjoon out of the room before we started talking. I thought it was best that he didn't know about the letters.

Since he wasn't getting one.

I didn't know you were out there Joonie

But just know that I love you. I love you with all my fucked up, piece of shit heart.