~~~ May 15
I hate fighting Jestro. Day in, day out. Jestro’s here, Jestro’s there!
Jestro Jestro Jestro
He’s all I’m allowed to think about
I had finally come to terms with the recent development by graduation. I hated to admit it, I hated myself for it, but I had finally accepted it.
I’m gay.
By the time graduation day had rolled around, I had... I hate myself for it. I had fallen...
It might just be a knight complex. Feeling obligated, always obligated to fight for people who are picked on, laughed at. Mocked. Like Jestro. So it might not even be....
Why is it so hard to say?
Love.
I had fallen in love with Jestro.
I had planned on telling him then, that day. Fail or success of his show, he’d either be so excited he would accept the... Confession. Or so upset I could cheer him up. Or maybe scare him off. But that was the day I lost him.
I lost my best friend to evil, because I was just too slow. I could have stopped him from joining that book, stopped him from wandering off, if I had supported him more. If I had... Helped him out.
If I had told him sooner.
...
I blame myself
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Clay Moorington's Verbal Daily Log
FanfictionA short, Clay x Lance. With Clay x Jestro as well... unrequited. Clay is very homophobic... and gay. Hear his struggles, voiced out. I am very symbolic, so I'd like to take a moment and explain my rather ridiculous looking cover... Clay, up close...
