the next few hours were spent watching running man. i sat infront of my full length mirror and stared at my reflection.
i pinched my chubby cheeks and fat nose.
i pushed my sharp-edged yet rounded glass off my face.
i pulled and cut the ends of my rough hair.
i stood up and squeezed every ounce of body fat i had on my stomach, thighs, wrist.
i whispered to myself, "if only i was skinnier,"
"if only i had clear skin,"
"if only i never had worn glasses,"
"if only i had eaten less,"
"i'd be like them."
then i cried. cried over how i could never be dedicated to doing so.
how i could never end up to become someone like them.
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the end !! 💗 thank you for reading 💕
