Waiting For Superman → Styles

→Chapter Eleven

(Warning Chapter Has Scenes of trigger warnings)

Both Harry and I were sitting on the sofa watching Friends and eating chips, when suddenly Harry turns off the T.v. and says "Tell me about you!" I understood what he was tryna do, with a small smile I begin "Alright Styles, well I'm an only child so my parents spoiled me, they bought me everything I wanted; dresses, tiaras, and basically anything that my little heart wanted, however there was one thing I wanted most..a Sterling Piano in mint condition with a music book and a stole, so for one of my birthdays my mama and daddy bought me one, I took piano lessons with a coloured woman named Mrs Reith who taught me everything there was to learn, I learned child songs and then adult songs like Mozart and Beethoven I got into the piano for days. When my lessons finished Mrs Reith kissed my head and told me goodbye since that day I never seen her since." Harry sat there like a childhood listening to a teacher read, I smile and continued.

"Around the age of 13 I moved from piano to ballet then onto singing and finally stopping at nothing, I stopped doing stuff when mama left daddy and me for drugs..that night was so cold, I remember the yelling and screaming from my parents I snuck half way down the stairs to see mama putting on her black ankle boots daddy bought her last Christmas, I remember her yelling "I'm tired of this shit John, you take care of the brat I'm leaving!" I'd never felt so betrayed.

After mama left daddy began abusing me and treating me like a slave, I remember having back pain at the age of 15 years old from scrubbing hardwood flooring and having men come over for poker and games, daddy let the men touch me and call me names like slut, bitch and even cunt..daddy never stopped the men instead he joined in.

Then one night daddy came into my room..I was the age of what I am now 16 years old he made me-" before I could continue I stopped the night replaying through my mind, the room began spinning as daddy's groans filled the air all to clear, I jumped to my feet and dashed to the bathroom where I threw up all that was in my stomach..

Harry came in and rubbed my back pulling my hair from my face, once I stopped and began heaving Harry pulled me into him and held me stroking my hair then whispering "You don't have to tell me anymore.." we stayed like this forever till Harry let me get up and wash my mouth, he asked if I wanted a shower and I nod, Harry gets me clothes and let's me take a warm shower I just stood there thinking about all the mistakes and how my life was a living hell then suddenly I was digging through the cabinets and drawers searching for anything sharp when I found some razor blades in the bottom of the drawer I held them in the light memorized by my own reflection..

Once inside the shower and in the complete nude my nipples hardening from the hot burning water that reddened my skin, I took some steps back then slid down the wall my knees propped up I rested my chin on top of my red knees for a good minute letting the memories enter my mind once more I gasped then flexed my knees down bringing them out I stared at my naked thighs the pale milky flesh growing hot against the warm water with an intake of air I bite back the pain and slide the razor blade against my skin it instantly bleeds I released the air feeling numb "Y-Your a f-fucking mistake Wyoming! Fucking bitch ruined me and Norma's life together!" daddy's voice echoes through my head crashing against my skull like lightning I slide the razor blade down three more, five more, and finally eight more times the blood poured down my legs into the drain I felt dizzy.

I must've blacked out because when I reopened my eyes I was lying in the shower the water was now cold hitting my face Harry was pounding on the door shouting my name..he sounded so worried I sit up then get up my legs stung I whimper but I twist the knob turning the shower off I then step out some of the blood pours down my leg I sigh then grab some toilet paper cleaning my legs until they stopped bleeding afterwards I change into grey sweats and one of Harry's t-shirts he let me wear I comb my fingers through my hair then open up the door Harry was no longer at the door instead he was sitting on the sofa looking upset my eyes widened there was tears streaming down his cheeks I rush over ignoring the pain in my legs I land in front of him cupping his cheeks I then ask "H-Harry what's wrong?" he replies with a broken voice "Nialls in the hospital..he was in a car crash with Lou.." I gasp then hug Harry tightly burying my face into his neck he holds me back afterwards we head to the Cheshire hospital..