Regrets

Chapter 2

Whenever I think about my life I think about it as a mistake. I love my children no doubt about it. However life is tough and I absolutely hate it. There are so many dates to remember that happened in my life and some of them I want to forget. For example October 14th 2015. This was an emotional date and I'll never forget it no matter what but as the years go by I don't want to think about it.

I wasn't even home when it happened and now I wish I was. I was in college and I was a part of the Disney College program. So instead of being home in Georgia I was in Orlando Florida working at Disney world. It was a normal Wednesday afternoon and I was working my shift at magic kingdom as a character handler. I remember I was on break and I went to check my phone really quick and I had twenty missed calls from my dad and 5 voicemails telling me to call him when I got the chance.

So I quickly called him "Dad? Is everything alright?" "Libby thank god you called. It's about your mother" "What about her? Dad what happened?" I started to get a little bit worried "Libby sweetheart she's no longer with us. She was killed on the job this morning" "What? No that can't be" "Libby sweetie turn on the news and you'll see what I'm talking about" I walked off to somewhere a little more private and found a tv turning it on to the news, and I couldn't believe my eyes.

"Police officer shot in heart this morning in Atlanta, Georgia announced dead" read the headline and I couldn't believe it. There was no way that was my mother they were talking about, until I heard her name. "Colonel Charlotte Johnson announced dead at two forty five pm on Wednesday October fourteenth 2015 after being shot in the heart by a wanted drug dealer this morning" a news anchor said "This can't be, that can't be her. That can't be mom, please tell me this is all a bad dream" I said my voice cracking a little bit.

"I wish it wasn't true sweetheart but unfortunately it is. Listen to me I already spoke with your boss and she gave you the rest of the day off along with the rest of the week. I want you to get out of there as fast as possible and go home. I want you to rest and try not to think about it" "o-o-okay"

I did what was told and got out of there going to my apartment. I quickly got inside and jumped in fear when I saw someone sitting on the couch that wasn't one of my roommates. "It's alright love it's just me" "Liam?" "Yes love, it's just me" he got up and wasted no time embracing me into his arms. All I could do was sob into his chest as I had no idea what to say.

"Shh, it's alright love. I know it hurts, you'll get through this. I'll help you get through this" he kissed my head and slowly swayed me side to side. I remember for the rest of the night I didn't say anything. I was so grateful and thankful that Liam was there to comfort me.

The hardest part was going home for the funeral and I wasn't alone. Liam was with me but since Liam was with me it made things harder. Everywhere I looked on social media my name was headlined in so many sorts of articles about my mother's death.

Leaving to get home and arriving home wasn't easy as there were fans everywhere where Liam and I were. I understand that the fans were trying to help but honestly they weren't them helping. I didn't want them to help, all I wanted was to be left alone but I knew that wasn't going to happen.

The funeral was small with it only being friends and family and those who worked with my mom. After it was all over I didn't really talk to anyone not even Liam. I wasn't in the mood for talking as all I wanted to do was leave. About a month after my mother's death I tried to get back to my normal life and act like I was happy although I wasn't.

To this day I still miss my mother and I wish she was still here to this day. If anything with the way my marriage is going I wish she was here to help me.

(A/N)

Hello humans! First of all I would like to apologize if anyone was offended by this chapter. I wasn't trying to offend anyone as I know that a police officer being killed is no joke especially there's so many police men and women being killed lately that we've been hearing about in the news. Trust me there was one two weeks ago in my state of Delaware as it was in Bear, Delaware. I really hope this chapter didn't offend anyone and I hope y'all enjoyed this chapter. Oh and by the way the picture is of Libby. Thank you so much for reading!

-Kayleigh