Regrets

Chapter 4

~Liam's POV~
I just put the twins down for a nap which gave me time to think. Picking up the twins from Libby's didn't run very smoothly as I thought I would. However I was to blame for that as I wasn't very nice to Libby.

I was so rude to her and I hate that. What happened back there was nothing like me, but all of my actions lately haven't been like me. I hurt her I hurt my wife. The woman that was made for me the one that is perfect for me. Every time I look at her I see anger, loneliness, sadness, and a broken heart.

I always promised that I would never hurt her, but I broke that promise. I can't believe I broke my promise. Now she won't take me back, and I don't know what to do about it. All I want more than anything is to hold Libby in my arms again.

However that's never going to happen at least right now. I'll never forgive myself for what I did. It hurts me so much that I yelled at her and in front of the twins. I honestly don't know why she let me take the twins for the weekend after the way I acted.

I can't stop thinking about her and I'll never stop thinking about her. We've been through so much and I just can't stop thinking about my favorite memory with her. I remember that I was so nervous to ask Libby.

It was our four year anniversary and I decided that it was finally time to propose to her. I was just seeing Libby for the first time in a while and oh how I missed her so much. Although the band was on hiatus I was currently working on my solo material.

Which made things difficult in a way because Libby and I still weren't living together. She just graduated from college and she got a teaching job that she was going to start that fall. However we had a huge argument about her taking the job before we even knew where we were going to live.

That's not important to the story though. I personally wanted Libby to move to London but she accepted her job in Florida. I was in Orlando for the week and Libby and I decided to go to Disney world for a few days and also go to universal studios for a few days.

On our actual anniversary we were in magic kingdom and Libby could tell  that I wasn't acting like myself. Every now and then she would rub my hand softly with her thumb and would look up at me and smile. I knew that she was worried about me and maybe she thought I was still angry with her from the day before.

She had enough of the silence so she finally spoke up. "I know that you're still angry with me but at least let it go for today. I can't handle another fight. I don't want to fight anymore." She said her voice sounding so small.

"I'm not angry right now Libby. I'm just thinking. We're not going to fight today love I promise you." I said pulling her into my side and she sighed softly. I knew that she felt bad for what she did but I wasn't focused on that. I was just way too nervous to ask her to marry me.

The rest of the day I really focused on doing whatever she wanted to do. Which wasn't bad because when she's happy then I'm happy. When it was time for the fireworks I was really nervous because it was almost time. Libby was relaxing drinking her Starbucks, eating a Mickey shaped pretzel, cuddling into my side and was scrolling through her phone.

Every now and then she would look up at me but I was too focused admiring her beauty. She put her phone away when the lights dimmed. The fireworks went off and about five minutes in is when I grabbed both of Libby's hands. She looked at me not really knowing what was going on.

I took deep breath and looked into her eyes. "We've been together for four years now and these last four years with you has  been an amazing journey. You're always so supportive no matter what. I know that the last four years hasn't been easy with me touring and with your mum passing away a few months ago. I know that we haven't seen much of each other because of my busy schedule but you know that I'll be there for you no matter what. I love you so much Libby and now it's my turn to support you. I'm so happy for you and I can't wait for you to start teaching in the fall. Which is why I'm going to move to Florida so we no longer have to be away from each other. We can build a home together and I can build a studio into our home. I'm tired of being away from you. Which is why I want to spend the rest of my life with you. So Liberty Marie Johnson, Will you marry me?" I got down on one knee and pulled out the ring.

I watched as tears formed in her eyes and she just stared at me then she finally formed some words. "Yes of course I'll marry you." She said crying a little bit. I got up put the ring on her finger and gave her a quick kiss.

Whenever I look back on it I can't help but smile. I've never been so happy before and she was the reason why I was so happy. It's a memory I'll never forget. But now all I can think about is how I broke her heart.

I was broken out of my train of thought when I heard small footsteps coming my way. "What's wrong baby girl?" I asked when I saw Kennedy standing in front of me. "Bad dream." She said clutching onto her stuffed bunny.

I sighed softly and scooped her into my arms. "Care to tell me what it was about?" I asked softly kissing her head. "You and mommy." She whispered. "It was about me and mummy? What were mummy and I doing?" I asked already knowing the answer. Kennedy has been having nightmares about Libby and I lately.

I feel so bad for her and I'm the reason why my daughter is having nightmares. "You were yelling at mommy and mommy was crying." She said nuzzling her small head into my chest. "Kennedy love I'm sorry about your nightmare. Trust me it'll get better."

I just hope that things will get better if not then I'm screwed. I don't want to lose my kids and I clearly don't want to lose Libby. I need to fix this and fast.

(A/N)

Hello loves! So sorry this chapter took so long. I was so busy with graduation and I recently started a new job. I promise that I'll try to get more chapters up soon. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Thank you for reading. Oh and by the way the picture is Kennedy.