Regrets

Chapter 3

I know that I have done nothing but talk about my past so far. If you really want to know what's going on in my life right now then I'll tell you. As of right now Liam and I are split. That's right we're split, however he won't sign the divorce papers. Why are we not together right now?

Let's see here, oh that's right he cheated on me twice. The first time he cheated on me I gave him a second chance. Well he blew his second chance and cheated again. However this time he got the woman that he was with pregnant. (A/N: this is just a story, I could never see Liam doing any of this) I was done, I wasn't going to give him another chance.

I was so broken and the children didn't understand what was going on when daddy left. They were upset when he didn't return. They would search the master bedroom only to find that Liam's things were no longer there. They didn't understand that their daddy got his own apartment and doesn't live with us anymore. They're only three so of course they don't understand any of this.

They were so torn to see mommy cry and they tried to make me laugh and smile but it was no use. I tried my best to put on a fake smile for them. They didn't understand that mommy and daddy's names were headlined everywhere. I wish I gave Liam a third chance but I just couldn't. He broke his second one which clearly showed me that he doesn't love me.

He's the love of my life and I never want that to change but he broke me. He ruined our family, he ruined my life. Every now and then he would show up and try to fix things but I wouldn't let him. "Oh come on Lib, please let me fix this. It's been two months and I miss you. I want to fix this, we're both hurting the twins if we don't fix this" Liam pleaded when he came to pick up the twins for the weekend.

"I can't Liam, I just can't. I gave you a second chance and you blew it. She's having your baby when it should be me and not her" "I would've loved to have a third child with you Libby but I just couldn't. Having the twins wasn't easy lib, you went through so many miscarriages and false pregnancy tests. You didn't have an easy pregnancy either. I didn't want to put you through that again" he said looking down.

"Put me through that again? So you thought it was okay to go off and have sex with another woman and get her pregnant, just because you didn't want to put me through that again? I can't believe you right now. That is the stupidest lie I have ever heard" I crossed my arms. "I gave you everything Libby. I gave you time and attention. I gave you love and affection. I gave you the dream house you always wanted. I gave you the twins, I gave you happiness. And most importantly I gave you a big ass ring and money. So stop being so damn ungrateful" he said with fire in his eyes.

"I never wanted your money Liam and I never wanted a big ass ring. If you think that's what I'm all about then you don't know me. It was never about the money and it was never about the fame. It was never about the house, I don't care about any of those things. I married you because I love you for you. I always loved how and sweet and caring you are but now I don't see any of that. All I see is someone I don't know. Someone with a cold heart" I said trying not get upset.

"You're a damn liar Libby, you always loved me for my money. That's all you cared about and it still hasn't changed." "I can't believe you said that and think that way about me. I always loved you and not for your money. If I loved you for your money then you would've known. I never asked you for money, I never asked for the fame, I never asked for the house, I never asked for a big ring. You know that I like things to be simple and that I don't care about money. I would never put you through that and you know I wouldn't."

I can't believe that Liam thinks that I only loved him for his money. I would never do that to him and I would never forgive myself if I did. I never asked him for money, NEVER. I loved him for him, I loved him for his personality, I loved him because he always cared about me and those around him. I loved him because he had a good heart.

"You need to stop lying Libby. You're like everyone else, a gold digger. As soon as this divorce takes place you're going to take all of my money away from me along with twins. You're going to take the twins away from me and I'll never see them again. I swear to god if you do that to me then you'll never hear the end of it. Because I will take you to court if I have to. I won't let a bitch like you ruin my life!" He yelled making me jump a little along with the twins.

"I was never going to do that to you Liam. I was thinking of shared custody. I was never going to take the twins away from you and I'm not taking your money either. I don't want to do that to you and I would never do that to you. All I want is for us to get along at least for the twins sake. They're hurting too Liam, they're hurting so much and at such a young age. They don't understand much of what's going on but all of this is hurting them as much as it's hurting us." I had tears in my eyes at this point and I quickly scooped up the twins into my arms and hugged them tight. I wanted to make sure they were okay.

I looked down at them only to see both of them crying and I kissed their heads. "Shh it's alright, daddy didn't mean to scare you" I rocked them back and forth slowly and wiped their tears. Liam sighed and looked at them and kissed their heads as well. I didn't pay any attention to him as I trying to calm the twins.

It was silent for a good ten minutes until Liam decided to say something. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare them. I didn't mean to call you a bitch or a gold digger. I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I know that things aren't easy right now and that's my fault. I shouldn't take all of the blame out on you when clearly all of this is my fault. I just want for us to be a family again."

"We can't be a family again, at least not right now. I can never trust you again Liam. I hate that I can't trust you anymore. You've changed and not for the good. Just take the twins and go home, I'll pick them up from daycare Monday afternoon" I said handing over the twins.

Liam sighed knowing that I wasn't going to give in. He grabbed the twins and their bags and left. Once they were gone I tried to relax but it was no use. Nothing was working as I was overwhelmed with emotions. My mind couldn't handle it and neither could my body as I went into a panic attack.

(A/N)

Hello humans! First thing's first, I would like to point out that this is just a story and that I know and could never see Liam doing any of these things. So please don't let this chapter offend you as it is just fiction. Also I hope you enjoyed this chapter. And since today is Mother's Day here in America I would like to say happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there. Anyway I hope y'all enjoyed as there is more to come. Thank you so much for reading!

-Kayleigh