My dear I've been with you for two months and I already feel like I know you more than I know myself. I know I'm a handful and I can be forgetful but thank you for sticking to me all this time. You're the most thoughtful person, to even stay with me and talk to me means so much. Everyone who stayed with me this long has either left or either left the next day. I love you I really do, it means so much that you're even here with me. I need you in my life, despite the motivation that you give me I don't understand anything at all.
Why am I merely here? Why do you even stay? I'm no good, and you're amazing. Any girl would be damned to have you in their life, I'm just here to make you happy and hurt you into your senses tell you to leave me. Until then I'll wait for that day, I feel it coming close. What's the point in being with me when all I do is ditch you? My perspective, I'm hanging with my best friend cause all she has is me and you have plentiful of friends, this isn't selfish to me it just seems wrong. What if you actually had no one, and one friend you only hang with just....left for their bf. It's reasonable but you'd just want to hang and play with them for a bit. I did, it was fun but she was quiet...I just want to make you happy.
Somehow I can't do my job correctly, usually when I want to change I torture myself. Maybe there is a reason I'm mental. I'm trying to do my best, doing what normal people do and just learn from my mistakes.
Thank you for staying with me and dealing with my..."issues". I'm sorry if I feel...used....and.....worthless. It's really hard to not cry..I love you.
Goodnight, love.
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Non-FictionOi, it's Raven! I'm just writing this book if I ever get tagged, it's someone's special day, or if I just need to write something of what mental state I'm in. Enjoy I guess, and warning to people who cry easily or try hiding it. ^-^ thank you!
