The week flew by and before you could say "thank god its friday" I was already slipping into my navy dress and black heels, applying red lipstick and heading out to a party at Jack Js house. It wasnt hard to get Nel to come because she knew Taylor would be there, recently they've been spending a lot more time together and its just a matter of a few days before they finally become a couple. We are all betting on it.
I knew Carter was going to be at the party, I cant avoid him forever because I guess he is in our group. We just havent spoken or made any form of communication since I finally ended whatever we were. I havent shown interest in any other guy, I'm staying clear from them.
"Glad you girls could make it!" Jack said while greeting us into his large beautiful modern home.
Like routine, Nel went off to Taylor and they both started getting drunk and flirting. It was a circle they were going round and round in. I saw Carter and he was completely out of it, hitting on every girl that was walking by. I walked over to Shawn who was sat alone with a bottle of beer in his hand. I grabbed one and sat beside him.
"Weird isnt it?" Shawn said
"Whats weird?" I asked.
"Being surrounded by all these people and yet you still feel so alone, being surrounded by complete happiness and you still feel like your drowning" Shawn shook his empty beer bottle and threw it in the trash beside him. Despite his depressing words, I could tell he was still sober.
"Is everything okay Shawn?" I asked, with a large amount of concern and worry in my voice.
"When is anything okay, Ellie? Look deep at all of us. You're a mess with Carter" Ouch Shawn, that hurt I thought. He continued. "Taylor cant see how in love Nel is with him and its breaking her heart, Nel cant see Taylor wants her to kiss him without being drunk and it hurts him. Cameron feels alone because hes afraid girls dont see him for who he is, Nash is afraid because hes failing Economics badly, Carter gets drunk each night to fight the pain he faces at midnight. We're all unhappy here, but we dont show it"
I couldnt disagree with Shawn because every word he spoke just now was completely correct. We were all unhappy and in pain, and no one shows it because we dont wanna burden anyone with our problems when we know they have their own.
"Why are you unhappy Shawn?" I asked curiously.
"I’m in love with a girl who loves an asshole” Shawn sighed.
"Ellieh, can we taalk nowwwiee?" Carter slurred his words "Pleaseeee"
"We arent finished this conversation, I promise Shawn" I stood up and pecked his cheek. He nodded and I walked off with Carter to a corner in the lounge, still surrounded by people of course.
"I told you leave me alone, Carter" I moaned at him.
His hand rested on my hip, I kept pushing it away but it kept coming back, I allowed it to remain there and only there.
"I want you Ellie" Carter's breath stunk of alcohol and salsa dip and nachos, a horrible mix.
"I dont want you Carter" I rolled my eyes at his pathetic comment.
"Not like that, Ellie. I want you, upstairs, now. Like old memories. Like old times. Just even better" Carter drew closer to me but I set him back in his place with a firm push.
"Are you feeling desperate because someone is saying no to you? Because you cant have something you want?" I walked away and he pulled me back.
"I could have you whenever I want Ellie. Just a simple touch up your leg, a simple kiss planted on your kiss and you'll drop your panties for me, right here, right now" Carter smirked.
I couldnt answer because I was taken aback when a punch was thrown to his face. Shawn. "DONT YOU EVER TALK TO HER LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN! DONT YOU EVER TOUCH HER AGAIN OR I SWEAR TO GOD CARTER REYNOLDS I WILL BEAT YOU TO A PULP! DO YOU HEAR ME?"
Carter smirked and laughed at Shawn which intimidated him more and made him throw another punch, even harder this time, making Carter walk out of the room with some of his friends following behind like little sheep.
"Shawn! Why would you do that to your friend?!" I yelled at him and dragged him into the laundry room which was quiet.
"Did you not see what he was doing?" Shawn threw his hands up in the air in confusion.
"HE WOULDNT OF HURT ME SHAWN!" I moaned back.
"Why not Ellie?! HES DRUNK OUT OF HIS MIND" Shawn had a strong arguement against him.
"Because he wouldnt! Its just not like him! Because he, he.. he" I couldnt finish the sentence.
"Because he loves you?! ELLIE IF HE LOVED YOU WHY WOULD HE DO THAT, WHY WOULD HE TREAT YOU LIKE THAT ELLIE YOU DESERVE BETTER, HE DOESNT CARE, NOT LIKE... LIKE" Shawn paused for a moment.
I quietened down and went silent for a second. "Like what, Shawn?"
"Like I do, Ellie" He went quiet and leant against a cupboard. "Ellie I care about you a lot, we're in every class together, we're in the same group, we might not talk out of school but you cant say we never talk in school, we always do, Ellie. We might not be as close but I really care about you"
"Shawn-"
Before I got to finish, he walked over to me, even in heels Shawn was still taller than me, he leant down and cupped my face in his cold hands which was soothing to the touch of my hot flustered skin. "Let me have this moment please, Ellie? I probably wont get it again. I'm going to kiss you"
I just nodded.
We both closed are eyes and he leant in. His warm lips were in sync with mine and I didnt pull away. I didnt want too. I melted and went weak at the smallest touch of his lips onto mine. I didnt feel vunerable or weak when Shawn held me close to him like I did with Carter, I felt safe with him. It felt nice. But did I even have these feelings for Shawn?
We were in complete silence for about five minutes. Not because we wanted to be, but because he was holding me. Just holding me. My head leant against his chest and his heartbeat soothed me until he pulled me infront of him.
"Say something, Ellie" He had a worried look on his face. "Are you angry?"
"Not angry. I feel okay" I smiled up at him.
And then he kissed me again.
AN - BET YOU THOUGHT IT WOULD AARON AND ELLIE. NOPE. OR MAYBE. OR MAYBE NOT. OR MAYBE IT WILL BE.
