Hopelessly [Sanders Sides]

They Deserve Better [Polyamsanders]

Highschool au were they're all in a relationship. LuvKitties1414 requested I write something for poly sanders in a high school AU.
Anxiety = Alexander
Beware of angst. I believe part of this has emotional abuse, dissociation, and self hate (maybe?) in it. Please note that I got an editor! Thank you to them for taking their time to help me out!! (They actually requested this so)

Alexander made his way to his next class, Geometry, in silence. His boyfriends all had classes that were in the other direction - Patton and Logan - or needed to take a different route to their class - in Roman's case. He didn't like going to this period because of the lack of his boyfriends. When they were with him, it made him feel safe and loved. When they weren't with Alexander, he thought about why they would even be dating him in the first place - he would doubt himself. Though, technically, even when he was with them he would doubt himself, but when they weren't with him the thoughts were stronger.

So, here he was, walking to his geometry class all alone and in silence, which obviously gave people the chance to pick on him. Usually, as long as Prince was there, people wouldn't dare talk badly about Alexander - or any of his boyfriends, for that matter. But because they were in a polyamorous relationship, they got tons of backlash for it.

It didn't really bother the others, much to Alexander's surprise. They just ignored it and went on with what they were doing. However, Alexander couldn't do that. He constantly thought about every little thing that was ever said to him, over-analyzing it, even.

As he was pushed aside and into the lockers, he sighed. He's gone through this so often, you would think he'd become numb to it. Instead, he's even more sensitive. There were people that picked on him because he was in a polyamorous relationship and then there were the people that picked on him simply because he was himself.

It wasn't every day he heard whispering as he walked to his Geometry class, but today seemed to be a day that he was destined to hear them talk.

"Why would they want to date him if all people?" A girl questioned, facing her friend but glancing at Alexander as he walked past.

"I don't know, but their relationship is wrong in every meaning of the word," her friend replied with a look of disgust on her face.

Alexander just continued walking, trying his best to ignore them. They didn't know what it was like to be in a polyamorous relationship. It was fine to be in one, and it wasn't wrong to like more than one person at once.

One comment, though, caught his eye.

"He makes their relationship toxic."

He paused, causing people to push him out of their way.

Did he really make the relationship toxic? Would they be better off without him? They would, wouldn't they?

Anxiety shook his head and force himself to continue to his class. He could think about it later.

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'Later' turned out to be the entire time he was in Geometry. Geometry slowly turned into the rest of the day. He wasn't good for them, he knew it now.

As he attempted to do his homework with Logic, Prince, and Morality, he didn't speak. He just fidgeted with his pencil and looked at the paper in front of him. He had to end it, right?

He had to make sure they got what they deserved - which was better than him.

So, as the others talked and laughed, he just sat there. Should he do it now, or should he wait?