In my almost fifteen years of existence, I have had seven boyfriends,
and countless crushes and obsessions.
And i finally realized why
i am addicted
i am addicted to hand holding
to my head on his shoulder
addicted to first date butterflies and
nicknames for each other
while Sherlock Holmes gets high off of solving cases and crimes
i get high off of
love
being loved
and loving
i am addicted to the moment they whisper
i love you
i am addicted to when we tell each other
what we love about each other
even though it's always the same
i love how funny you are
how smart you are
your eyes
even though i need that was all bullshit
they didn't understand love
how could we at age
six,
seven,
eleven,
fourteen
i am addicted to daydreaming
seeing them after school
stealing jackets
i am addicted to being love
because i cannot love myself
it is easier to look at someone and believe they are perfect
and they make you feel perfect, too
but then
the high turns to a low,
i turn bored and move on
to a new addiction.
