depression is not just sadness
its sadness and loneliness and guilt and exhaustion and not having an once of motivation
its skipping school, claiming you have a headache
a stomach ache
anything
its laying in the tub,
watching the water pool at the drain
its not turning homework
its not shaving for two weeks,
and when you do,
its crying over missing a strip
and instead of shaving again,
you cut yourself with the same razor
its not going outside
not eating, then overeating
missing class, missing friends, missing life
and when you tell us we aren't trying enough
we cry in the bathroom for an hour or three
because we are trying
we are trying to breathe
while drowning.
