Unloved - 💞ON HOLD💞

21 Therapist Visit

Song above: Vybz Kartel ft Spice - Conjugal Visit.

Lizzy
After I was for sure that Ken was as far away from my house as possible, I ran upstairs and immediately took off my clothes. Knowing that I'm going to need a long cold shower after all this, I looked for some warm clothing to throw on to visit my therapist, Ms. M. Edwards, or in other terms Marissa Edwards, my second mother and best friend.

Outfit chosen.

After I was finished combing out all my tangles, I grabbed my purse and my phone and walked the 20 blocks to the therapist's office.

As I arrived in front of the building I walked up the stairs to the third floor, where Marissa was. I knocked on her door and waited for a few seconds before seeing the door being flung open "Lizzy, I thought that I'd never see you again?".

I smiled and embraced her, having her hug me back with her warm arms "I came here to tell you what has been going on for the past week. And trust me when I say that I have lots to say".

She looked that she was about to go home but she opened the door wider and allowed me inside, with me lying on the couch and Marissa on the large sofa "Let's begin our session then".

Marissa's outfit.

"Okay, where do I begin?" I murmured to myself.

She coked an eyebrow "Are you seriously thinking this through?".

I shrugged my shoulders "I don't know, I just have so much to say. Right now it feels like I've smashed a giant boulder onto my chest, making me suffocate, really hard".

She crossed her legs and replied "You tell me what first went on. What happened to make you stop visiting and actually start coming to due sessions?".

I smiled "They stopped the bullying, and saved me from Kyle once".

She took out her clipboard and started writing "Alright, that's nice and very surprising, along with very interesting. What's next?".

I took a deep breath in and out "When Ken saved me, I was confused, scared and angry. But in order for me to get what I want from Kyle, and expose him once and for all".

She raised up that eyebrow again "Really? Is that why you were hanging out with them, or are you starting to like them?".

I shrugged "They do keep me company, I mean I don't really have anyone to talk to much".

She looked at me straight into the eyes "Anyone in particular that you hang out with the most?".

I nodded "Yeah, actually Lester. I know that he was the biggest bully in my life but something is really wrong. Lester and Jeremy keep telling me that how Ken is controlling them, and that they can't go against his orders. I also want to know what do they really mean by that".
"So I expect that you're just using them to get what you want? Or is it something else that's holding that part of you back?" she asked.

I breathed out loudly. Actually, is that what I really want? Or is it just the fact that I can't Peel myself away from the suffocating feeling that I gave towards him? So I chose to answer truthfully "Actually Marissa, I have no idea. I don't know what I really want".

"And why is that Lizzy? What's holding you back from just making that easy decision without hesitation?"

I sighed "On one hand I really don't care about the fact that Kyle has something against them because I'm trying to fix my own. But on the other hand? I.... I can't just run away from how I feel about having them involved in all this, including when it all involves me. I mean I know, I shouldn't have given them my good graces after what they've done to me but, you're right, there is something holding me back. And I'm really pissed because it's just meddling with my emotions and I don't know what to do about it".

She nodded after a few seconds "And here we are with the main and ideal question. What is holding you back from everything you've been planning to do to them. Who is mixing up all your emotions and having you in this condition?".

I gulped "I...I don't know if I should say his name or what but...I'm not gonna lie. I do Luke him and...that what scares me the most. Because he was in all of the bullying and low self-esteem shit and I don't want my heart broken. I don't want to be broken, or controlled".

She crossed her legs and leaned back "So it's a guy that's holding you back. What does he have in him that you want? What makes him so interesting out of every other guy that you've been attracted to?"

"He different, because he's a frickin mystery. He aura is so deep yet so thick and so mesmerising that you want to know more, that you want to look deeper. And it leads you into a roller coaster of exploding emotions that you really don't need, at all".

I could already feel my voice cracking up from talking about this because everything that I'm saying...is true!! And it hurts so much because I know that he'll never feel the same way with his damn hard head.

She sat up with a serious expression plastered across her face "Then the problem is going to be revealed. Who is this mysterious guy?"

I took a long deep breath and replied "The mystery guy......is...".

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