Insanity At Midnight

Chap 2

I go through school like a robot. I smile when I'm supposed to, laugh at all the right times, and give all the normal responses. No one knows how I feel on the inside, nobody but Dell. I have little scars from where I cut yesterday. I'm surprised Dell didn't come and heal them like he always does. Come to think about it, I don't remember him coming to me at all last night. That kind of scares me, Dell is always there.

Why didn't he come to me last night? I'm snapped out of my thoughts when a guy slaps my ass. Tears well in my eyes. I hate them so much. All of them just standing there laughing at me. I grab everything from my locker and close it, then I rush out of the building and hop into my car. As I'm driving home the tears won't stop sliding down my face. When my vision starts getting too blurry for me to see, I pull over on the side of the road.

I try my best to clean my face. When the tears stop falling and my face is all dry, I get back onto the road. I blast my radio and sing along, trying to forget what happened today. I need Dell. I miss him. Why didn't he come to me like he always does? Where is he? Is he giving up on me?

These questions run through my head over and over until I pull into my driveway. I get out and walk into the house. It's quiet, meaning no one is home, THANKGODD!! I hate when they're home. It means I have to talk and pretend to be someone I'm not. I walk down the stairs to my room. I lay down on my bed and cry myself to sleep.

I wake up hours later and I'm greeted with silence. I get up to get my blade. I look at my arm and see a dark burgundy line from where I cut myself. I guess he's really not coming back. I decide to cut my thighs so no one will notice the scars or anything. The pain burns white hot. It feels even better than my arm. So much many more cuts, so much more blood, more everything. I feel so much more high than usual. This hurts so good. I want more. So I make more cuts. Drip more blood. Feel more delicious, stinging, blinding pain. I feel so light, like I'm floating. I close my eyes and savor the pain. My blood feels cold as it slides down my legs.

I hear someone clear their throat. I snap my head to the door. It's closed and locked. I turn my head the other way, shocked to see Dell standing there arms crossed over his chest.

"Looks like someone has been a very busy girl." he states eyes roaming over my legs. I stare at him for a while before I finally speak. I say the only thing I could think of.

"Make me feel better." He walks over to me and picks me up bridal style, and carries me into my en suite bathroom. I watch him as he sets me down on the counter. He turns around and walks toward the door. I open my mouth to say something, but he closes and locks the door before looking at me so intensely my whole body heats up.

He walks over to where he left me and starts taking off my shirt. I let him undress me until there's no clothes left to take off. He turns on my shower before taking off his own clothes. After he checks the temperature he turns to face me fully. My eyes move down his body taking him in. Trying to memorize every contour. I'm so lost in his body that I don't even notice he moved until I feel his fingers pulling my chin up to look him in his face.

It's then that his mouth descends onto mine. It's like explosions and tiny sparks, he wraps his arms around me as my legs instinctively go around his waist. Without breaking the kiss he picks me up and walks into the shower. All I can think about is how much I want this and how good he feels against my skin.

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