Distractions [completed]

Part 28 : "I-I love you."

Listen to that song, if you wanna. It might explain the emotions and feelings going on in this chapter.

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Fucking Chad. Of course, with my luck, he cancels the 'meeting' right when I walk in.

"Oh yeah. I canceled the meeting, you don't have to come." He could've said over text but decides to wait till I get there and say "Never mind. Go home."

I flicked him off and he laughed, then I knocked off the container of napkins off one table. Those things are a pain in the ass to be real, that's why I knocked it off. Needless to say that pissed him off.

I don't want to call anybody, especially Kesten because he's probably already at his house hanging out with his mom.

The seven minute walk to my house was very much needed. Talk about needing fresh air, the walk was just so refreshing. It gave me time to think and just relax.

Turning the corner onto the street my house is on, Kesten's car is parked in my driveway. Weird but it brings a bright smile to my face.

I skip to the door and open it quietly. My smile slowly falls off my face when I hear yelling. This feels all to familiar.

"I told you I'm not doing this anymore, like at all!" Kesten yells at whoever.

"We made a deal that you would become her friend and get close to her and tell me everything you know! You can't just quit because you have 'feelings for her'!" Soph yells back at him and my heart sinks to the pit of my stomach. Oh My God, I'm gonna be sick.

I knew something bad was gonna happen, I could feel it in my gut.

I walk toward the voices, they're in the kitchen.

"I do have feelings for her, hell I might even lo-" His voice raises a little and he sounds offended.

She scoffs "Don't you dare say you love her!"

I look down at my shoes "More lies and secrets." I mumble but their argument stops and I realize they hear me. "More secrets and lies." I say louder and give a humorless laugh.

When I look up Kesten looks scared and Soph just looks really sad.

I want to be sad, I want to burst into tears. You could probably see it on my face, but you'd mainly just see anger. I can't believe he would do this. All I know is I'll be damned if I show him how hurt I am.

"Alexa I can-"

"Alexa I can explain, I'm so sorry, You don't understand. Save it. I don't want to hear any bullshit come out of you mouth, you have no right to talk to me or hell even look at me!" My voice rises but also cracks a few times.

"And you of all people! My fucking sister just doesn't know how to stop betraying me! I mean My God, you could've asked me! Asked me about what was going on or how I felt! But no! You just had to go and be a bitch and screw me over by sending someone to spy on me. A person who I ended up falling for!"

"I have never hated anyone this much in my life than how much I hate you two right now! Except the asshole who killed my parents." My hard facial expression is broken now and I just look plain sad. Or at least I imagine.

Kesten's eyes are watering and I hate myself because all I want to do is hug him. My whole body is numb and my arms are just hanging by my sides. I'm done trying. I'm done in general.

I turn away from them and my eyes start tearing up, I start to walk but Kesten's voice freezes me in my place. 

"Please don't leave me," He whispers and I close my eyes and take a breath "I-I love you."