[M] I HATE MY FUCK BUDDY | YEONBIN

IHMFB : FIFTEEN

So much easier to hide
Than to face what we might find
There'd be so much less to lose

'Cause the more that we fight it, we drown
The more we deny it, it comes out
The more we stay quiet, it gets loud
It gets loud

'Cause I don't wanna be your friend
I'm so tired of pretending we don't have feelings
Ooh, I know you feel it

— Don't Wanna Be Your Friend
Ayokay (2018)

Oh God, Soobin knows he's inlove.
Thus, pops out the question— was Yeonjun in love?

Answer, simple and short— no.

| Next Day |

After the beating hearts, gleaming eyes, hesitant holding hands, and cuddling— Soobin woke up, and took a one good look at Yeonjun's sleeping figure.

Soobin remembered how Yeonjun held his hand all night, and Soobin couldn't fucking sleep with that.

So here he was, in the library, with the laptop opened in front of him. It was currently 3 pm. He had successfully avoided Yeonjun all day. Soobin just had things to think about.

Soobin opened up google, and then typed in. How do you know if your crush likes you back—

What? What the fuck— Soobin deleted that sentence and then took a deep breath.

What. The. Fuck. Is. He. Doing.

His hopes MUST stay below a certain level. The moment he raises them even an inch above that thin gray line, it means he gotten his hopes up, and will see them tumble down soon.

"No, no, no!" Soobin mumbled under his breath, and searched it up again.

How to know if your crush likes you back

Soobin scrolled down the article, muttering 'dumbass' under his breath again and again.

1. Notice Physical Contact!

This article was already way too enthusiastic, and probably getting traffic by losers who are pining over someone who will never like them back, aka— Soobin.

Speaking of physical contact— Yeonjun is quite touchy. Duh, they were fucking! If he wasn't touchy, that'd be weird.

But sometimes, he's overly touchy? Like last night, he just randomly grabbed Soobin's hand and then simply massaged it.

Yeonjun's hand was kind of cold, and Soobin's hand is warm, and you can say they find comfort from each other.

Soobin couldn't even think. Even now, just the thought of that small gesture sent Soobin's heart racing.

2. Figure out their shyness around you!

Yeonjun's not shy. Not at all. He's loud, assertive, dominant, let everyone know what's in his mind, and doesn't hold back. Well, that's Soobin's perspectives.

Sometimes his words come off mean and very offensive, but Soobin's come to adore it. It's what makes Yeonjun special.