Depression. Worthless. Cutting. Suicide. Ugly. Being not good enough. Everything is killing me slowly. I've been feeling like I'm worthless for a long time that I'm actually believing it.. If my heart stopped beating, no one will even care and everyone will complete their life normally. Cutting has been getting the best of me but I try stopping it. I tried cutting but I was too scared. I'm tired of being not good enough. Not pretty enough, not smart enough, not kind hearted enough.. I'm breaking down slowly and no one knows it. Even the people I thought they cared, were just there for me in my darkest days for popularity and being called a true friend. Have you ever thought of being in a crowded room and felt alone? I just think that I should just walk away from this cruel world but I'm too scared. Everything scares me. Even the nicest people scares me because I believe they're just pretty good actors. No one is really nice anymore in this world. I'm just a sad soul in a happy body. Everyone thinks my life is full of happiness and rainbows but it's actually a storm with lightning that never stops. Everyday, I put on my fake smile and a mask to cover up my pain. People call me cute or beautiful in front of my face but behind my back they just call me ugly and fake. And they're right, I am ugly and fake... Thoughts of suicide haunt me daily. I can't take it anymore. She paints a lovely picture but there's a shocking twist. Her paintbrush is a razor and her canvas is her wrist. I'm worthless and no one loves me.
I've hurt my skin, just like everyone did to my heart. I never thought of hating anything in me but now, I hate everything in me. If I was pretty, I would get noticed and I would never felt worthless. For god's sake this is reality we're talking about here. Everything is dark and happy endings don't happen with girls like me. I should just cover up my pain cause cover girls don't cry after their face is made.
-Nadia Haitham
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Dear girls, love yourself. Never underestimate your beauty. You're beautiful, gorgeous and your heart is worth its weight in gold. You're not fat, you're not skinny and you aren't ugly. You're beautiful and never think that cutting or crying yourself to sleep or convincing yourself that you have depression or hiding your pain or suicide is going to solve anything. Keep your head high and ignore the haters. Keep smiling till there's no tomorrow. I'd like to say to every girl here, heads up princess or the crown slips. Take care, love. If anyone is feeling down just pm me and I'd be glad to help.
Lots Of Love,
Nadia Haitham
xxx
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