Crimson Wish

1st Step: A jump

A new year has just arrived, snow falls down as people go around minding their own business. Living their lives as they would normally do. And for me, well... I'm now watching over them from above.

No, I'm not a guardian angel watching over the world from heaven. Heck, I don't even think heaven exists. Even if such a place does exist, that is not where I would be going. Heaven is too bright, to warm for me.

For you see, I am just a simple man standing atop a building, looking down on eveyone. Gathering up the resolve to jump. And maybe as I hit the ground, my soul would somehow continue falling until it hits hell, if such a thing do exist.

Anyways, back to the matter. Yes, I am trying to commit suicide. And no, it is not stupid, it is freedom. 

Most people just don't get it. Everyday waking up and thinking, "why the fuck am I still alive?". All I wanted was to live a normal life. A life where people don't treat me like I'm invisible, like I'm nothing but a tool that they call and notice only when I'm needed.

NO!!! No more! I don't want a life that feels like hell no matter where I go. A life where everything I do is wrong. No more! It is all gonna change. Now, it is all gonna end. For today, a step, a jump will end it all... *jumps*