crushed veneer | dkyungsoo

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12:11AM — Kyungsoo

It's 12 midnight and I'm holding the hand of the girl I fell in love at first sight. She giggled as if it's her last day on Earth. Even if we just met, it feels like I'm already holding my World—as if I'm holding my wife's hand.

"You're so slow, Kyungsoo!" She chuckled as let go of my hand and went ahead of me. "Try to catch me first!" She said and ran fast even she was wearing shoes with an inch heel.

Is this what love feels like? Does it feel like you're chasing something you're afraid to loose?

It feels tiring, but the pain is worth it.

I tried to catch her, I even tried Naruto's run but I failed, "Leila." I started to running out of breath. I stopped from running and my head started to feel dizzy. "Lei—help." I whispered, I unzipped my bag and looked for my inhaler. My vision turned blurry and I heard a familiar woman's voice.

"Kyungsoo!"

Then, I blacked out.

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1:12AM — Leila

Kyungsoo.

I watched him fell down to the floor and fainted, he dropped his inhaler on the floor. I screamed his name again and ran back towards him. "Hyung! Kyungsoo passed out! Kali, we must help him—let's take him to the hospital please." I screamed for Kali. I started to softly slap his right cheek. I checked his pulse, he's okay.

He'll be okay.

My whole body started to shake and I couldn't breath properly. It triggered. Anxiety triggered.

Kali hurriedly ran to us, carried his body. I don't care about myself now. Kyungsoo is the only one I think about now.

Good thing that there are still taxis at this hour, so we hailed one. Kali put him on the back of the car and I sat beside him. While Kali sat beside the driver.

"Kyungsoo, you'll be okay. You're okay." I whispered as I unzipped his jacket and removed it. His back was so wet and he keeps on muttering words that I couldn't understand. His sweat was like water falls, "Soo, we're near."

We finally arrived at the hospital and we took him at Emergency room. The hospital team placed him on a bed and checked his eyes first. The doctor finally arrived and checked his pulse, "Are you related to him?"

I nodded, "He's a friend of ours. Will he be okay?" The doctor started to examine while Kali hugged me and whispers, "I know it triggered, please, drink your medicine." He handed me the pills and a water bottle. I drank the pills and drank a lot of water. My body keeps on shaking and my fingers started to fold. My sweat was like water falls.

Why do I worry so much? Why do I worry for him?

He handed me a brown paper bag, telling me to breath—it'll be okay. I breathed in and out on the paper bag. My fingers were finally okay, but tears came out.

The nurse approached me, "Miss Park, please sit down first. Your hyung told me everything about you. Please, take care of yourself. Kali will take care of him." I nodded and she took me in a corner where there was a stainless bench.