Poetry in motion

4. Message I never meant to send

A message I never meant to send:

Sitting here waiting for a reply

To a message I never meant to send.

Knowing that it will never be worth the time I spent

Because it never mattered anyway.

Not to you, that is.

And sure,

You can't actually answer.

And you cant truly know...

That all I'm doing is waiting for a reply,

To a message,

I never meant to send.

So, finally you get to meet me. Hi. I'm Kyrin. I'm sure you're now rereading that poem in a manly voice about now, cause I'm sure you thought she wrote it. Who's she? Why, Claire of course.

Now that you know it's me and not her, we can begin.

I have lived my whole life here as Kyrin Nunez, but I'm actually Kyrin Cobain. I think only my parents and I know about this, so keep the intell safe. It's important that you do.

There is a girl here that I think I know. I think she knows me from before, when I could live as Kyrin Cobain. But I can't be sure until I mention it, and I might blow my whole cover if I do. Catch the irony there?

I don't think i'll ever find out, honestly, because if she is who I think, then she is a way better agent than me.

Ah.

You hadn't gathered that yet, had you? I'm an agent in the CIA, a special ops guy. I do things that adults can't. Since two years ago, anyways. When Lady Lillian Ramitzch introduced me to her british commander, who then sent me to the american base and blah, blah, blah... badda bing, badda boom... yadda yadda yadda. TA DA!

Yep, she's a brit, So it's more of an international unit than a 'CIA' thing, but I'm still a CIA agent while she works under British Intelligence- MI-6.

And if you haven't read through the lines on that yet, the girl I was referring to before is Lady Lillian. We used to be partners but got split up after... that whole thing- which is a story for another time. Though we got split up after only a year, we were very upset about it. 

Very. Upset.

Oh, shit.

I don't think I was supposed to tell you all of that. Hahahaha... uh, i guess it's good that I got fired then, isn't it?

Yeah, I got fired from the CIA and I wasn't memory wiped or terminated or anything. I was super psyched.

Until I got paged about a class 1 mission.

I wasn't even cleared for class 16 yet, so, I was very interested in knowing why I got paged for a class 1. Then, I received a new badge not 3 days after being fired and began my work as a Class-1 agent. Yeah, i got a huge promotion.

Anyways, that was the reason I got sent to So. Cal, so I could do a Class-1, without my partner-against-crime (Mmmhmm, yeah, we came up with that on day two). I've been here for approximately three months, and I'm already at the top of the Pop. squad, Oh shit.

I have a date like two minutes ago so, I'm going to pass it off to... Claire until I get back. Uh, yeah, Adios Amigos!

Hello again, ladies and gentlemen, now that Kyrin has so intimately described his... life... to you, I am back to... uh... i don't know. I guess, tell you about the adoption...? Yeah, that's what I'll do. Okay... where did I leave off...

Oh that's right, we're about to leave for my mother's house. Yes.

Throughout the car ride, Kyrin and I texted.

Ky: YOO sup maen, i thought we was gonna chill or somethin'

Me: Nah, I gotta do something, maybe tomorrow cause its a bit late

Ky: Ur in HS broo u gotta liv it up ya'no?

Me: u good boi?

Ky: ya... I good y?

Me: ur texting kinda weird

Ky: mite b the smirnoffs...

Me: thought u said you USED to drink

Ky: ya but you remind me of her

Well, no shit sherlock, I am her.

Ky: Oh, fuck sorry, I didn't mean to like make shit weird or anything...

Me: nah nah, you're all good

Ky: Good lookin' ;P

I didn't respond to that... until after the adoption papers were all signed because I had to stop looking at my phone to pay attention to what was going on.

Ky: Just like you.

Me: ...

Ky: yup I said that

Ky: oh wait... I just said that... shit. Lilly is gonna kill me

Lilly? ME? LILLY, AS IN ME? OHMYGOD. OHMYGOD. OHMYGOD. HE REMEMBERS ME. I know he's talking about me because his girlfriends name is Emilina or something like that.

Me: Nah, I wont kill u

Oh shit.

Now he is going to know that I'm Lillian Ramitzch, not Claire Bristol. He is going to remember the two months that I was his 'sibling' and the year that we were partners and then it's all going to hell. The disguise, the move, the marriage, the adoption...

Oh no.

The adoption. What am I supposed to do? How am I going to get adopted if someone- besides my parents- know that I'm not Claire? How am I supposed to keep up the ruse if somebody- from my past no less- knows?

I am so.

Utterly.

Fucked.

Damn it! I can't believe I ruined everything. I just wanted to keep my mom safe! And over a guy?

Shit.

Fuck.

Titties.

Arse.

Yes, I know my cursing sucks, shut up about it. I can hear you laughing. Damn it!

Ky: huh? Ik u wont
Me: yeah... idk y i said that... jus forget about it
Ky: already done ;)

I didn't respond because I knew i would fuck up again so I focused on the adoption. My adoption. Happening right in front of my face... wow.

There's no one standing here anymore.

'Thanks thoughts. Thanks SO much.' I said looking at the sky and raising my arms helplessly. Turning around to head back to the house i ran smack dab into a hard chest, landing arse only on the ground.

'Oh shit, sorry Lilly.'

I panicked. Looking up with my eyes wide. How did they know it was me? My dye was on point, my accent hadn't slipped...
But then i realized it was my father. 'Dad,' i whispered. 'It's Claire now, remember?'

'Right. Yeah. Sorry.'