10 days of purging

17

March 22
Day 2 (1;22pm)

Life is one thing I wish that wasn't so hard, but of course it's so difficult, it's harder than anything has ever been before. It's like you're fighting for food, money, work, and your life. No one should be fighting so hard for their life, the only thing they should be fighting for is money.

I just find it so hard to believe how the rich think that  the purge is here to Cleanse everybody's soul. How on earth could it help someone? Why does someone need to kill another? Is their life that bad that they need to hurt someone else's.

I walked slowly, still feeling my heart break at that fact I seen my parents killer, and I didn't pull the trigger. I should've killed him, but I didn't.

Maybe it's the fact that he's 14/15, or it's the fact that I knew I wasn't going to feel any better if I did so. I mean who could? He's a young boy who was born into all this bullshit cause of his father. No boy should be raised like he was, but he was, and he can't change that.

But yet I can't help but think how he also killed my parents, stabbed me repeatedly leaving these scars left on my stomach to remind me of that awful night. That awful, awful night. 

I could just still feel the pain that was left when he pulled the knife into my flesh, and when he threw me and kicked me around while blood made its way through my clothes and on to the cement ground, leaving a huge puddle.

A hot tear ran town my cheek, allowing me to quickly wipe it away from my face so Cameron couldn't see, but of course he did.

He rolled his eyes while grabbing a hold of my arm and pulling me close to him. He was about to say something, but I pushed him off me, and started to walk again.

"Okay stop walking, and look at me" Cameron's voiced caused me to flinch. He caught up to me, and stared down at me not saying anything at all. He gave me a sympathetic look, while he grabbed a hold of my hand again.

"I don't have time to see you sad, and walking slow. Okay, we need to get there now so suck it up and start walking"

I yanked my hand away from his, starting to walk in the direction we were off too.

I can't stand him. He just can never say anything nice, it's always mean and it's starting to
Frustrate me.

"Whatever, just shut up and let's go"

He chuckled at my words, and started running so he was next to me. "Listen" he grabbed a hold of my hand and pushed me towards him. I gasped silently pulling myself away from him, but that just made him grab me again and pull me closer to him.

"Stop resisting Eva" he shouted getting frustrated.

I stopped and crossed my arms as I got my grip away from his. "What? I'm walking aren't I"

He rolled his eyes back and licked his lips like he was getting entertained by all of this. What is so entertaining? The fact that I'm getting more annoyed as ever or the fact I'm really hoping that I could have the opportunity to punch him.

"You see Eva. It's very funny you think that you're all tough an all, but believing that you are when you aren't makes you weak, and weak gets you killed"

I laughed at his little speech, and tilted my head back.

he is so wrong. Being weak doesn't get you killed, acting brave doesn't get you killed. But being scared gets you killed.

I stared into his brown eyes waiting for him to say something else but he didn't, so I smirked, and couldn't help but stop what I was going to say.

"You are something you know. It's funny how you think you know everything when you don't, cause trust me you don't. You absolutely know nothing about me. You don't know how I live my life, you don't know what I've been through, so stop saying those things get you killed cause it doesn't. Being scared does"

I walked away from him again, pulling my hair into a messy bun  while I walked back into the direction we were off to.

Soon, all of this is just going to make me go crazy, and I'm going to be left with nothing but myself loosing my mind, and the left over memories of when I used to be happy.

And I really don't want that to happen. So I need to get my shit together and find Beth, cause I know that if I don't find her, or they end up killing her, I'm gonna be left with nothing, and I can't be left with nothing, I need her, and she needs me. 

     So no matter what, I will get her back.

A/n

Okok. This chapter is horrible, nothing is really happening, and there is only a few talking parts. But next chapter will be longer and better. A lot will be happening text chapter so be prepared.

But I also wanted to tell you guys how I am having second thoughts about this book and I am thinking about just ending it, or deleting it, but I need you guys to tell me if I should just continue or not.