NF Imagine

~Part 2- Nathan is Leaving

After two months together Nate told me that he was going to have to leave soon because his manager wanted him to start making new music. I told him I was fine with it because I understood that this is what comes with fame and having to work hard as an artist.

In reality it hurt so much, but I couldn't let him know because it would make him want to stay and I couldn't do that to his career. I love him and I want him to have everything he deserves.

As he was packing I watched him letting the memories of us play in my head, holding back tears. Finally, after he put the last piece of clothing in the suitcase he turned towards me and I saw how sad he looked making it so much harder to hold back the tears, feeling a tear roll down my cheek. Nate touched my cheek brushing away my tears that fell, but suddenly it was no use because a sob came out making tears fall faster and he hugged me tightly. He shushed me and smoothed my hair in his hand as I cried on his shoulder. I kept losing my breath the harder my cries came out and Nate looked at me with tears in his eyes and said, "It's okay, I won't be gone too long, I will call you when I have time." I nodded as I felt him wipe away all my tears and he kissed me gently. I kissed him back and hugged him tighter making sure I wouldn't let him go. As he pulled away I suddenly whispered, "I love you." I heard him gasp, but he smiled at me and said, "I love you too." I smiled back and leant my forehead against his.

I then heard a knock on my door and it was mom and dad waiting to take Nate to the car. I looked at them with utter sadness and I realized they were there when we both said "I love you" and they knew how much it hurt me to let him go. After Nate let go of me and picked up his luggage and he kissed my cheek one last time before he left my room. I stood there staring into space waiting for him to come back, but he didn't so I ran to the front door and grabbed his arm before he went out. He hugged me again and kissed my head, his body suddenly leaving mine and he walked out the door and walked into the car and the driver drove off making me wave goodbye. Suddenly, my knees felt weak and I dropped to the floor and cried again and Samantha hugged me and I hugged back. And then I picked myself up and we walked back upstairs into my room and I explained to her what happened. She hugged me again and said, "Remember, if he truly loves you he will come back, but if he doesn't he was never yours." I nodded and realized all I had to was wait and listen to his music to remember that he would always be with me. Especially if I prayed to God for him and let Him heal me and make me the person that Nate deserves when he comes back.

~August~

After two months without Nate it had been okay overall. I still dreamed about him and I always prayed to see him again. I did sometimes get the chance to talk with him on the phone, but it wasn't the same. We always said "I love you" at the end of talking to make sure we knew we had hope.

Finally, after the Shawn Mendes concert I knew that we'd be going back to college soon, so I hoped he would be able to come see me off.

The first day of college sophomore year came and Nate called me to say good luck on my first day and he wished he could be there, but he became too busy with making new music. I told him it was okay because I knew I would be busy eventually too. We said "I love you" and hung up and I walked to class.