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[Chapter Four: Alec]

❝Speak in such a way that others love to listen to you.

Listen in such a way that others love to speak to you.❞

--Unknown

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CHAPTER FOUR

Alec.

She dreaded the time his name would come up. Why did she wrote his name on the third place? She should have placed it at the end of the list.

Talking to him demanded to be brave, to put her pants on and face her mistakes fully. Writing to him after all this years was the most difficult thing she had to endure. Mostly because confusing waves of feelings were involved. She tried to avoid his posts, scrolling past every time one of them came up.

Alec had a girlfriend now. He seemed to be happy with her and at least once every three months they went abroad to some cool place. Becca was happy for him. Yet there was this silence between them, an abyss that set them apart, and she hated that. She hated how from one day to another they went from being best friends to complete strangers.

They'd both been stubborn, and their pride didn't let them see beyond themselves.

What they never understood during high school was that there's always two sides of a coin.

He just wanted to see one.

Alec Torres (@7orres_Alec)

Becca: I don't know how to start this Al, I just...I have all this words in my head, but It's so difficult to type them down.

I promise to do my best though, because you deserve it.

I'll start first apologising for ignoring you all this time. I'm stubborn as a mule and I couldn't face you, I just couldn't. I realize now how childish that might have appeared, even though you didn't make an effort to talk to me either, I shouldn't have let you slip away like that Al...because what we had was special. I valued you, I still value you. I'd counted on you so many times to take my back, I'd sought you out for strength, I'd rely on you, I'd hug you with all the love I had inside me. You were the pole that kept me standing and when you weren't there any more, I just fell to the ground.

I collapsed.

I needed you, I needed you then, but you wouldn't even look at me anymore.

I wondered why. So many nights awake looking at the ceiling for hours wondering what did I do to deserve it.

What you did hurt Al. It hurt so bad...

I should have approached you and try to talk things out though, instead of running to Camille.

I should have never ignored you like she told me to. I should have never given you the cold shoulder, but I did.

It hurt like hell, but I did it.

Everytime you'd pass by without a second look my way, it hurt.

Everytime you'd hug someone other than me, it hurt.

Everytime you'd share your Pop-tarts with another girl hurt Al, that was our thing! Why would you go and rub it on my face!?

Everytime you scored on a game I wanted to run through the field and hug you. Do you know how difficult it was to stay on my spot cheering while you hugged your buddies? Have you got any idea how much it hurt to chant your name? A-L-E-C only four letters, but they seemed eternal.

Everytime you partnered up with someone else without a second thought, it felt like a punch.

Why Al? Was it because of that night? I never understood. 

We'd always been touchy-feely. You'd sneak into my room at night and we'd sleep together, you'd cover my face with kisses when you were joking, you'd hold my hand, you'd hug me, you'd stroke my hair, you'd count my freckles...

Yeah, I knew. I knew you had a crush on me. What was the big deal? I never understood. 

It was just a kiss on a drunken night Al, I didn't even ask for it. But you just had to be so stubborn, you wouldn't let me explain. And the next thing I knew, you'd spread rumors all around school that I was pregnant. I mean, what-the-hell Al?

I know I hadn't been the best friend out there. I could have been better, I could have made the effort. I guess I just took you for granted, and that was my mistake. I thought you'd come back to me, you never did.

I still miss you though. I loved you Al, just not on the way you expected me to.

I forgave you. I did. A long time ago. I wanted you to know. And I also wanted to apologise for not giving your friendship the value it deserved, only realizing that when it was gone.

I'm glad you are happy. It makes me happy to see you happy, and I hope one day we could meet again and I get one of those hugs I miss so much.

Love, Bex

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a/n: Hey everyone! Who doesen't love to have a guy friend whom you can hug whenever you want?
Do you ever fight?

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