Chasing Destiny

Chapter Nine

Chapter Nine
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A couple of minutes had turned into hours,hours had turned into days...and entire week of sulking,chronic insomnia and hopelessness.it all felt like a dream..and I still can't believe that my zee-zee had died in my own wedding event!

Nothing could feel the emptiness that had situated itself underneath the flesh of my chest after zainabs death or rather zainabs murder ...in my own wedding event!!nothing.
I have never been in so much pain__and the worst part is not a single tear had dropped from my eyes__.

I opened my eyes and realized that it was already time for salatul fajr__Daada danejo being the religious woman was already on her praying rug with her rosary bead Carbi as usual.

"Are you alright "?Daada Asked pulling me from my thoughts __her voice sounded dreary as she turned to look at me for a second before her gaze returned back to her carbi.

"I am fine "I uttered a bit harshly while peering out the window but Daada didn't seem to mind __i was tired of answering the same question every time..everyone stared at me with utmost pity,and even daada danejo among all people had been exceptionally kind to me.

This year had been incredibly backwards for me __i lost one of the most important people in my life,been married to Captain Sagir__my cousin.and to think of Sagir didn't like me one bit is another pain.

Speaking of Sagir,huh__i haven't seen him since the day of zee Zee's murder__when modibbo gathered the entire family in his living room and gave a heart touching Naseeha...I was the one who saw him,I doubt much if he actually paid mind to look for me amongst the gathering.

Even though Captain Sagir and His friend Captain Tahir had Avowed to find whoever has hand in zee Zee's murder.
It is never easy losing someone you love dearly. It feels as if the sun has gone and will never rise again. We take lesson from the life of our perfect example Nabi Muhammad (Sallllahu 'Alayhi wa Sallam) and his Companions (RadiyAllahu 'anhum) and we take comfort from the veres of Qur-aan.

After praying fajr_ I decided to go outside the house...today being the seventh day..after Quranic recitations every member of the family would go back to their respective homes.

I gathered every bit of strength that I was able to muster and warily made my way up the stairs __when I reached the stairs ,I noticed zee Zee's room was wide upon .

"Zee-Zee "?

The name felt painfully unfamiliar as it automatically escaped my lips __i made my way into the room ,the atmosphere feeling thick and heavy on my lungs I scanned the bed room as my eyes fell upon her legging and Atampa wrapper_the one I used after walima during the wedding last week.i noticed that one of her nightgowns was hanging loosely on the door..I walked over and seized the gown from the door and allowed myself to collapse on the floor .i clutched zee zee s gown as tightly as I could ,I raised the gown to my nostrils to find that her scent still lingered!!Allah sarki zainab!!!

I was shaking and trembling,zee Zee's murder had completely devastated me _and not a single tear had dropped from my eyes.
Not a single Tear
Not a single Tear
Not a single Tear!!!

At this point,I realized that Tears too were Rahama__a source of mercy to relieve ones heart!

This chapter is quiet short and dark!!!its just to show you an insight on how Khadeejah is feeling over her cousins murder.
Am already working on the next chapter so I don't leave you feeling depressed!i ll try to post on quick succession .
This book is about to dive into some deep places.please vote even if you are feeling a little sad right now.and if you could leave a comment to tell me if you were affected by this chapter the way I was__i'd appreciate that too.

With so much ❤️
Islaha94🙋🏽😉