Slowly Fading

Chapter 2

Those eyes, those ice blue eyes. I just kept seeing them over and over again. Everywhere I looked I saw her eyes, even when I closed my eyes, I could still feel them burning an icy hole through me.

I would turn corners, and be frightened of what was waiting for me. Who was she? Why did I dream of her? Why could I physically feel her stares? Was she rea- "Hey babe!" My mental torment is interrupted by Mia. My sweet, beautiful, caring Mia. She was looking at me with worry in her eyes, "Kaden... babe... what's wrong?" She reaches out to touch my arm. I am about to let her when I look into her eyes. Her once deep brown eyes are replaced with the icy blue ones of the girl in my dreams.  I pull away from her in horror and confusion. She looked at me with hurt in her eyes. "Kaden, are you okay? Please, babe, don't push me away." She reaches out in a second attempt to touch my arm, and once again I pull away from her.

"Your... eyes. Mia what's wrong with you eyes?" I say it with more anger than I thought I had towards those eyes. She dropped her hand to her side.

"Kaden, please stop. Your scaring me." I can see the tears start to build in her eyes, making her now ice blue eyes glassy and doll like. Her shoulders drop, she's about to break down and start crying on the floor. I know she is, when ever her shoulders drop she begins to cry.

I blink and take a moment to see what have bone. I look back at her, her eyes back to there usual brown. I step towards her, and attempt to wrap her in a hug. "Mia...sweetie...I'm sorry. I haven't been thinking straight. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. " I try to explain and comfort her, not wanting to see her in any kind of pain.

She doesn't even look at me, keeping her head down, shoulders dropped and her arms by her side. I pull her into a warm hug and walk her to my car. I open the door for her and shut it when she gets in. I had been taking her to and from school ever since I could drive, she became my routine and I wasn't going to break it now.  

I had hurt my baby girl and I had to make it up to her. I stopped by McDonald's, got her a big mack with some large fries, a large coke, and a milkshake, chocolate like always. I didn't want to take her home and her still be hurt by my stupidity.

"Mia..." I had stopped the car in a random parking lot. I looked at her. "Mia, I'm so sorry. Please babe, I can't take seeing you hurt. And it's worse becasue I was the one that hurt you." I lift her chin up so that she is now looking at me, tears building up.

"Why were you so repulsed by me..." her eyes don't falter once.

"Babe, I could never be repulsed by you." I say as I cupped her face in both of my hands.

"You were, Kaden! You were so repulsed by me that you wouldn't even let me touch you!" She begins to raise her voice, letting her sadness turn into anger.

"I know, but I was confused... I-" I try to explain to her that it was a misunderstanding, but she cut me off.

"What was it that you were confused about, Kaden! Was it the feelings you have for me? The relationship we have together?" She stares at me, waiting for an answer, as I search, desperately, for how to tell her as much of the truth as I could with out her thinking I'm insane.

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you!" I raise my voice a little, as my frustration builds.

Mia looks at me, slightly shocked that I had raised my voice. "For fucks sake , Kaden, just tell me!"

I couldn't hold back from telling her  the truth, and my dream any longer. "I had a dream last night! It was full of terrible screams! The screams were coming from this girl, she was crying but when she stopped and looked at me..." I trailed off, remember her ice blue eyes. "Her eyes, I haven't been able to get them out of my head! And when I looked into your eyes earlier, you had those eyes!" She just sat there looking at me, and I couldn't  tell if it was from shock of my outburst or that she thought I was insane. So I waited for her to react further, and those few seconds were like torture. I didn't want to lose her, she was my world know.