Well I haven't been on here in awhile. Sorry about that. I have been really busy with softball and school.
The past few weeks have been rough. An old "friend" has started to talk to me again, but it doesn't help that he is a senior and that hes leaving in a week. I honestly can't come to believe that I'll probably never see him again.
I know he uses me for things, but the things he says, the compliments he gives me, they all make me feel loved. I don't get that from anyone else. All I want to be is loved.
I don't want to come to terms that I'll never have him in my life. I mean, He won't even talk to me in person but I still like to talk to him. Its the way he talks. He makes me feel loved and wanted. Its hard for me to think about the future and how he isn't in it. People judge to much and because of it I live my life according to their rules and how they want me to live my life.
I've always heard the saying, "Be you". But how can I 'be me' when every one else around me constantly judges what I do.
All I want to do is live my life to the fullest, having someone I love by my side. Is it too much to ask for someone to love and care about me?
