never let go

3.Eva

6 months ago:
They say actions speak louder than words but what do you do when those actions fade and nothing else feels the same? I don't care anymore, what others think of me, I don't care if they feel sorry for me because my mum died or if they call me weird because I spoke my mind and that i look like a jelly fish when i walk. You know that feeling you get when your not sad but you feel empty...

I spend 10 minutes on trying to pick what I wear and I just wear jeans and a top because thats all that i have in my wardrobe to be honest. I go to school and for the first time I look forward to biology because of Nate winters.

I walk in expecting a different atmosphere but its the same and I feel disappointed because i don't see him so I sit and wait for him and he finally comes in. He's wearing a hat backwards and his soft brown hair looks kinda scruffy, but i like it and it suits his loose top saying RHT which stands for RIPLEY HIGH TIGERS which is the school football team.
'uh..sorry i'm late I got pulled back after practice' he says as he walks towards me but miss ridges doesn't look as impressed.

We have to do the alkali metals experiment with our lab partners as if we haven't done it since freshman year which gets a little boring. As we sit down I can see him staring at me from the corner of my eye and it gets uncomfortable after a while so i look back at him and he's smiling but it fades as he looks back onto his notes.
'Hey,Eva, so you know i'm new and i don't really know this town a lot so i was thinking if you could...show me around?' He says, almost mumbling but i'm good at hearing but i snap back at him and say 'And what makes you think that we're friends' and I don't know why i do that but I just do and I feel scared because i cant control myself anymore