Shawn Mendes Imagines

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I look at the time on my phone

23:56

I've been waiting for shawn, for over 4 hours. He said he'd be home at 7 o'clock, just before the kids go to bed. Well he didn't come home. it's been like this for a month. He says he works, but i don't believe him. I've seen the 'love' bites on his neck. He always smelt like another women when he came home.

I always wonder to myself 'why don't i leave him'. Simply because i can't. i still love him, and i hate myself for it. i regret falling for him and i regret marrying him. i regret promising to never leave him, until my death. He is not the man you see on interviews. He is the not the gentleman you probably think he his. 

i heard the door slam from the hallway. "Hey baby" i hear his exhausted, but proud voice. He sees me sitting on the couch. He walks over to me sitting next to me. he kissed my cheek  and i immediately felt disgusted. I stood up and walked over to our bedroom. I felt the anger burning inside of me. i am very uncomfortable, knowing his lips has touched another women. 

"y/n what's the matter?" Shawn comes in quickly. "I know everything shawn. i know those lips of yours have touched another women. i've seen your 'love' bites" i say trying not to cry, i didn't want to cry for him. He stays silent looking down. "I hate you. I HATE YOU" i yell throwing a pillow at him. i walk to our closed and pull a suitcase out from the shelf. "Baby, what are-" don't you dare call me baby and i am leaving you" i say angry, throwing clothes in my suitcase.

i walk out of the closet with my suitcase, seeing shawn sitting on now his bed. He looked guilty and sad. i walked out of the house throwing the suitcase in the car. i get the kids and put them in the car, they were still asleep. 

i walk up the stairs and into our bedroom. i kissed Shawn lips, knowing i won't do it again. it felt amazing, but i was still disgusted knowing what he has done with those lips. "you didn't just cheat on me; you cheated on us. you didn't break my heart; you broke our future" 

and in that minute i was gone