How does one become your friend?
Have you ever felt like yeah I think ive got friends but do they actually consider me as their friends? We all want to be remembered by someone else whether it's for something good or bad. I always think to myself, Do the people I call my friends remember me when something happens in their life?
Today is my Guy Bestfriends birthday so ofcourse I greeted him at first he asked me if I wanted to go to his house because he had a party later. I asked him the details of the party then went on and asked if I was actually going to go? I said yes. He then proceeded on telling me "but its happening at night" I got the feeling that he only asked me because he knew that I wouldn't be able to go because I did not really go out at night. I know it's not a big deal but these little things make me wonder a lot because ever since I was a young girl I always felt left out. I never had the friend that would call me anytime to hang out or a friend that I could call to hang out.
Ive had a lot of friends in school but just in school. When it came to going out I was always being left out and wasn't getting invited, I did not seem to care at first because I did not actually go out but when summer arrives every one of my so called group of friends are together and are always out then there's me at home seeing their pictures on every social media platform there ever is.
I don't know if I'm making a big deal out of this but who cares I just want to say what's on my mind. I went to my friends work yesterday and I really had fun we talked for hours and I really missed here because I just got back from London. She was this one friend that would actually remember me. I don't know where I am going in this entry because I feel like I'm contradicting myself with some of the things I say but I don't know that.
