Stereotypical

Numb

I cannot feel –
my limbs lost feeling.
Not being able to sense is so freeing –
so relaxing and right.
This feeling of not feeling is just what my soul needs; it is an unusual medicine.
Another drink and suddenly nothing else matters to me.
Nothing is better than being numb.
Time seems accelerated, and my body is now light and carefree.
Why can't I keep this feeling?
Why can't I stay like this forever?
Why can't I just stay numb?
It is far better than the life I lead –
far better than anything I ever felt.
I'd rather have no emotion than this heavy sorrow I carry.
I yearn to be free of this burden, but nothing seems to cure –
nothing can rescue me from this hellish curse.
I just want to be numb.
Would that not be far better than the burden I currently carry?
Would numbness be so bad?