I sit down at the piano in the lounge and start to play a few notes, slowly practising each note and falling in love with the music.
I start to slowly sing the song, getting more powerful with each word until I reach the end of the song, where I soften my voice and slowly fade out. The boys are out doing something for some project so I am left alone, that is until I hear the door open. Well I don't actually hear it cause I am too busy playing the next piano piece.
heart
beats
fast.
colours
and
promise
how
to
be
brave.
how
can
I
love
when
I'm
afraid.
I softly sing a thousand years by Christina Perri as I play along on the piano and imagine a scene happening in my head as I sing more powerfully and don't hear Dan come up behind me.
Time stands still
Beauty in all he is
I will be brave
I will not let anything, take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, every hour has come to this.
One step closer
I have died everyday, waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
I continue to play the piano oblivious to Dan behind me, sitting on the couch watching me in awe as I move around playing the keys of the piano, stroking them as if they are diamonds.
By the time I finish I go to stand up but am met with Dan right behind me.
"Dan," is all I can say in the moment of shock.
"Sami, that was amazing," Dan says hugging me tightly.
"Thanks, there is more meaning to it that what I show," I say quietly.
Dan backs away from the hug and looks at me.
"What do you mean?" Dan asks me I push him onto the couch and make him sit down.
"So, you remember when we first met two years ago and I was in a long dress, side braid, make up and all blinged up and I said it was because my parents want me to look presentable and I can only go in public like that?"
"Yeah," Dan says looking at me confused.
"Well, there is more to that, I wasn't allowed to wear anything that had sleeves or hugged my legs, essentially, I could only wear dresses and had to be super super lady like otherwise I would've literally been killed, the scars on my arm," I say pointing to the tattoo now covering them. "Are from the last time I wore jeans and a t-shirt in that household and that was when I was 15, I then moved on from that and had a boyfriend who I thought was caring, loving, kind and I thought he loved me, so I sung that song for him whenever it was our anniversary but towards the end of our relationship he cheated on me and that's when the other song comes in, I ended up getting depressed because of what had happened and I think you can tell what happens after that."
Dan doesn't say anything, he just sits there star struck.
I fall to my knees and start to cry softly. I feel two arms pick me up and place me on their lap. I feel Dan hug me tightly and not say anything.
•••••••••
It's been three days since I told Dan what had happened and he's been super protective over me especially when guys flirt with me.
"Dan you don't need to be so protective I can fend for myself," I say smiling at Dan who had his arm around my shoulder as we entered a Starbucks with Phil.
"I know, but I don't trust anyone and plus it makes me feel safer," Dan says.
I sigh in defeat and lean into Dan's chest as we wait in line for our coffee's/drinks.
"Whatever you say," I say smiling up at Dan as he places a kiss on my forehead.
I hear the click of a camera and my head flashes around to Phil who has my phone in his hands taking a photo of Dan kissing my forehead as I am smiling at him.
I swat at Phil grabbing my phone and looking at the photo with Dan looking at it with me.
"That's cute," I mutter to myself.
"Yeah it is," I hear Dan say.
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