Suicidal Tendencies

Chapter One

Harry's p.o.v

"Harry, Harry, Harry" the paps screamed, flashes going off everywhere.

They continued to yell profound things as I entered my flat. None of which is true. I shrugged it off like it didn't bother me but it did. A lot actually. I hated that I was seen as something that I'm not. What hurts the most is that I can't please everyone no matter how hard I try, I am never good enough. I couldn't be the man everyone needed me to be.

I sank down into the couch. Tears unwilling escaped from my eyes like they always did. I hated being like this. I hated having to hide it from everyone but, it's not like they'd care anyways right? no one truly cares, they all say that they do until one morning you wake up and they're gone and you're left alone again. Everyone ends up leaving in the end. This caused me to cry harder, negative thoughts drowning out everything else. My demons never silent.

I emptied that last remaining capsules into my palm, shoving them all into my mouth. I knew that I was going to be happier. I knew that this is the right thing to do, not only for myself but for everyone else too.

I made a promise to myself as I slowly drifted off into the never ending sleep. 'I will be happy'

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Ava's p.o.v

It usually started around midnight, when I knew that my parents would be asleep. The walls that I put up every morning came crashing down when I was finally alone. I stopped sleeping about a year ago because the nightmares where getting to bad, they only caused me to relive a part of my life that I wish I could forget.

It gets tiring to pretend that your okay when your not. I smile all the time but no one really knows how sad I am. They say that this sort of thing slowly creeps up on you but, there wrong. It kicks you when your down, brutally attacking you, smothering you like a wild flame. How can you be thankful for every new day, if waking up this morning was harder than the last. A life where you are constantly being haunted by your past.

I cant do this, bleeding wrists just don't numb the pain anymore.