Understanding Him

Outrage

Emily's POV

I need to distract my mind right now so I decide to take Aidan up on his offer.

I walk over to him and sit beside him looking ahead at the lake. I can feel his eyes on me but I don't look at him.

"What brings you here at this time?" Aidan asks me.

His voice already making me feel calm. He has a deep rich voice, which could make any girl fall for him.

I sigh "No reason, what about you because you were here before me?".

I decide to look over at him. He turns his head in the other direction quickly. Is he?

"Nothing" Aidan says trying to brush it off.

"Aidan look at me!". I demand.

"No Emily, just go away for your own sake.". What?, thought he wanted me here. I grab his arm.

"Aidan look at me now" I say getting annoyed.

He sighs and looks at my hand on his arm. I pull it away. He finally looks at me. I stare into his blue eyes that are now bloodshot!

I quickly get up and rush out and start walking home. I'm livid!.

Why do I have to be so stupid? I think to myself.

Of course he cWhattalk to me without being high. He's just like everyone says in school.

What made me think we could actually get close or he could help me?. I'm an idiot.

I hear footsteps behind me. Knowing its Aidan I ignore him and continue my journey home.

When I do make it home I look out the window to see Aidan walking past my house before walking down his street.

There is silence in my house. My dad is probably exhausted with all the crying he's done lately so I leave him be while I walk up to my room.

I change into my pyjamas and get into bed but I cant sleep with all these thoughts running through my head.

Was he high the last time he followed me home?

Is that why he acts nicer at the lake because he's high?

Why cant I stop thinking about him?

I sigh knowing if I don't stop thinking about him I will go crazy.

I hear my dad get up to go to the bathroom. I hear muffled cries as he passes my bedroom.

Why is he crying so much?

Why wont he tell me?

The last thing I hear before I close my eyes is the bathroom door closing.

I wake up the next morning, exhausted!.

I drag myself out of bed and climb into the shower to wake myself up. I do my usual routine and check myself in the mirror.

I don't recognise the girl looking back at me.

Her eyes are dead, bags under her eyes and red patches on her cheeks from crying during the night.

I'm exhausted. Mentally. I sigh and walk out of my room to leave for school.

Aidan's POV

I didn't sleep last night at all because of my high. I fucked up big time.

Why did I have to tell her to join me?. I should have just left her and pretended not to care.

I'm such an idiot. I think to myself as I get out of bed.

I quickly get changed for my day and leave my room.

I don't eat breakfast cause I don't have anything in the house apart from weed or alcohol.

I climb onto my motorcycle and speed down the road.

I see Emily waiting at the bus stop her head hung low.

I push back my feelings to run over and comfort her and speed up even more wanting to get away.

Why do I feel the need to protect her?

I enter school and park my motorcycle in my usual spot. A few girls try to catch my eye. What a bunch of whores.

Even though I'm known for being a "Bad Boy". I never use girls for my own pleasure. I respect girls too much to do that.

I see Kyle talking to some blonde chick. He calls me over. I groan and slowly make my way over.

"Hey man you look tired as fuck today, up all night doing a certain activity with a certain someone?". He says while wiggling his eyebrows.

That blonde chick has a confused look on her face. Great!. I sigh

"Fuck off man, im in no mood for your shit today". I walk off annoyed because that blonde chick is gonna question his joke now.

Kyle knows everything about me as we have been friends for years. He knows I do drugs. He knows about my 'family'. He knows I'm drawn to Emily.

He is used to my bluntness and rudeness so he doesn't mind cause he knows I don't mean it.

I kept glancing at Emily during class's. Although she's too busy in her own world. I have noticed she does that a lot.

I wonder if she's okay?.

Shaking those thoughts. I cant care about anyone cause I'm turning into my old man and won't let anyone get hurt.

I ditch at lunch because I cant stand to see her upset. Feeling angry at her, my feelings and at my myself.

I walk into the direction of the underground ring. Ready to knock someone out.

I walk into the building and get a few nods from people. Ignore them cause there just jealous fucks cause I'm Kevin's best fighter.

I walk over to get my gloves and start warming up.

"Kevin!, I'm fighting!.Get me someone to knock out!". I shout from across the arena.

Kevin notices me and nods choosing some twig of a boy. I laugh into myself. He's dead meat.
"Kevin I'm betting £5,000 I can knock him out before the third round". I say while walking to the ring.

He chuckles and nods. I place the bet and get in the ring ready to knock this twig out.

An hour later I walk out of the arena with £10,000. I smile to myself as my phone beeps.

Kyle: What happened to you today?

I sigh not wanting to reply but have to or else he will bug me.

To Kyle: Had to leave man, Couldn't sit there and watch her be upset.

From Kyle: Okay bro, she will come round to the fact you smoke weed. Don't worry.

To Kyle: I don't want her too. I'm not letting her get close to me, i'll talk to you more tomorrow bro.

I put my phone away sighing. He knows where I am when I ditch school.

He doesn't fight or do drugs, only drinks sometimes. He's goofy and outgoing. I wonder how were friends.

Not wanting to think or feel right now, I message my supplier.

To Supplier: Get me weed, Meet me at our usual spot in 10 minutes.

I walk over to the spot, The lake.

How does Emily know about this place?. My thoughts drift to Emily again. I sigh not wanting to think about my feelings right now.

I shrug it off and get my weed. I walk home and enter my house that was once filled with people and noise. I miss the noise.

I sigh in sadness and sit down. Rolling the weed, I get high for the second night in a row.

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