Holding Onto You(Eddsworld Tom X Reader)-COMPLETE-

Depression

A/N:
TIME SKIP TO 2 MONTHS LATER AFTER WHAT HAPPENED WITH TOM AND YOU BTW EDD AND MATT GOT YOU CLOTHES ALSO THOUGHT THAT CAR RADIO WOULD BE A GOOD SONG TO SUB THIS SONG UP ALSO SUICIDE + SELF HARM IN THIS CHAPTER PLZ LEAVE IF CANT DEAL WITH THX also I have been listening to MCR non stop and can FINALLY listen to 'DESTROYA' all the way through😁

YOUR POV:

I sat in Tom's room looking out his window. He hasn't been home in about 2 months.

I started to get worried. I sighed and looked at his closet.

I got up and opened his closet,there were his hoodies. The more I looked.

The more I wanted to cry.

Edd and Matt tried to cheer me up. But right now all I wanted was Tom.

I will admit I like him.

And it was obvious he liked me back.

I grabbed one of his hoodies.

I put it on.

It was to big,but I was fine with it. I like big hoodies,they felt nicer than your size hoodies.

The sleeves were to long. But I didn't mind. I looked around his room for some alcohol.

Alcohol always seemed to help when I was upset. It was my helper.

Lucky I found some Smirnoff in one of his drawers. Most likely for secret reasons. I locked Toms door so that the boys couldn't come in.

I started to drink my sorrows away.

I sat at Tom's window drinking and waiting.

I thought I saw him. But it wasn't.

I laid down on his bed I was looking at his ceiling. That's when I heard a knock on his door.

"Hey Y/N? It's me,Edd. Me and the boys are going to the arcade...wanna come?" I heard a muffle Edd say. "No thanks!" I shouted at him.

I heard a muffled sigh and footsteps distancing themselves.

I laid Tom's bed.

Doing nothing.

I got up and walked out of Tom's room I went to Tord's room(we ALL know where this is going).

I cracked open the door a little,to make sure that he wasn't in there. He wasn't. I ran over to one of his shelves and found different types of guns,hentai and knifes.

I WAS gonna get the gun but then I remembered Tom,if he came back and saw I was there and the others knew then he would MAYBE commit suicide. I couldn't let that happen.

Instead I grabbed one of his knifes,I walked towards the door and shut it.

I went back to Toms room and locked the door again.

I sat in his floor,looking at the knife and Toms blue hooded sleeve. I rolled up on Of my sleeves.

I began to cut(PLZ DONT CUT YOURSELF OK THX) it didn't hurt like I thought it was. I did sting though.

I made 4 cuts.

1 cut: Being myself

2 cuts:Tom being gone

3 cuts: My fault that I checked up on Tom before he left and before Edd got mad

4 cuts: Loving Tom

I sighed when I was done,there was knock at the window,I got up from the floor.

Blood dripping as I walked.

I looked outside,nothing was there.

"Oh Tom...look at what I did! I wish you were here! Like...like you never left me! Or Edd,Matt and Tord! Ok...maybe not Tord. But still. Please Tom...come back I know that your off somewhere else,but look at me! I'm f*cking talking to myself!" I laughed a little and then my eyes started to water.

I blinked. My eyes released tears.

"ITS MY FAULT YOUR GONE!" I shouted.

I backed away from the window,I flopped down on the bed and groaned into one of the pillows on Tom's bed.

My phone went off,I got happy. "Tom! It has to be!" I picked it up and checked it,it was only Harper,one of my friends.

I picked it up.

Key:
Normal:You
Bold:Harper
Italics:Actions

"H-Hello?"
"Hey Y/N! It's been awhile since we have talked! How lon-"
I started to cry
"Wait...Y/N! Are you crying?! Where are you?! I'm coming! TELL ME WHERE YOU ARE!
I froze. She might blame Edd and them for me being upset. But I DO really need her! UGGHH! Curse my feelings!
"I'm...with my friends"
"Katelyn?"
"No. I live with her but I'm...I'm...I'm at my best friends house."
"Oh. Ok. What is their name?
"It's actually names"
"Ok! So what's their names?!"
"Well there's Edd,Matt,Tord a-and...T-T-Tom..."
I started to cry
"Listen baby,I'm gonna come find you,don't ask HOW I found you,but listen this calls for some Harper TLC. Ok?"
"Ok..."
"See ya in a little! Bye!"
I didn't answer I just hung up.

I laid in Tom's bed. Not wanting to move,or get up.

There was a scratch at the door. "Ringo..."

I forced myself up and went to my door,a grey cat came in and jumped into my hands. "Hey Ringo..." Ringo meowed,I laughed. Then I started to pet the furry baby.

Ringo purred it made me smile. The first I have smiled in while.

I glanced over at the window,I saw a black shadow I looked at me. When I blinked it was gone.

I put Down Ringo,then went over to the window I opened it,"Tom?!" I shouted. "Is that you?!"

There was nothing there. People probably thought I was crazy. I sighed and walked away. 'Wait what am I doing? I should be out looking for him! Not just doing nothing and being upset! I should write a note for Edd and them.'

I walked to Edd's room since I knew he had paper.

I wrote:
Hey guys...so...I'm not here.
I left. Not forever,but I decided to go look for Tom.
                                                     ~Y/N

I walked to kitchen and opened the fridge,I put the paper on one of Edd's Colas.

I walked back to Toms room,I left the knife.

I had nothing on me. Not my phone,a weapon. Nothing.

Just myself and Tom's hoodie.

I jumped out of Tom's window and headed to the woods.