I don't know why but I feel like I'm drifting further away from Christian. I've been crying myself to sleep for the past week. Sure call me whatever you want, but it's true. Ever since bright got shot Christians been shutting me out. The thing is before this whole thing started, well whatever you wanna call it. Hell I should say. Anyways he never did that. He would never shut me out. Ok I know Bright and Christian are over but starting to think it's not over yet. I haven't eaten in days. I can't fall asleep without having nightmares. I can barely take care of my own self! Carl for instants I swear he's gone into depression. I'm trying to do everything I can to help him but I only make it worse. I sat on my bed crying my eyes out. Daryl walked in and sat me he pulled me into his tight embrace. Daryl was like my dad his was my father figure. I loved him and he loved me. "Darlin' please talk to me. Please don't shut me out to." Daryl said. "I just- I feel bipolar. One second I'm crying then screaming then punching the wall and then crying again then I start laughing. Daryl what the hell is wrong with me?!" I yelled. "Hey relax calm down ok?" Daryl said. I instantly relaxed when Carl walked in. "Hey um can I talk to grey for a sec." Carl asked. "Course" Daryl said hugging me again. Carl walked over to me with his arms wide open I instantly fell right into them. I cried then screamed. I let it all out. "It's ok baby let it all out. I'm right here" Carl said tucking strands of hair behind my ear.
