This Is It// Inspired By Before I Fall

Chapter 6: Emotions

I woke up to my alarm clock again and again and again.
I tried to stop them all from dying but I never could figure out how to do it, I was mean somedays and nice others, even one day I became friends with Beth and I told her, "You know, Beth?"
"Yeah." She smiled.
"You are perfect just the way you are." She thanked me and walked away, I ran over to her and said, "Don't go to the party."
"Why?" She asked.
"Because I know what you want to do there and I know you don't want to die."
She giggled, "Whatever, I won't go."
"Promise."
"I promise." She took her hand out and shaked mine.

I felt a sense of relief after she said that. I took her hand and walked with her to class. It hurt me that after all I've done to her, she forgave me and wanted to be my friend.

"Why were you with wetty Betty?" Kendall spat.
"Because she's a human being who needs friends, and I like her."
"Why don't you go sit next to her then?" Aubrey sneared.
I sat up from my seat. Picking up my food and my drink and sat next to her.

After school we went over to her house and talked to each other.
"I'm sorry for everything I've done." I apologised.
"Really it's okay." She turned her phone on and looked at something. "I mean we're friends now." Her eyes went red.

She got up and went upstairs I presumed she went to the bathroom. After 30 minute I started to get really worried and that's when I heard her crying, she couldn't stop. But eventually she did.
"Beth! Beth.. Are you okay!?" I screamed and shouted but she didn't hear.
I went upstairs to go check what had happened to her but the bathroom door was locked so I went to go get her mum.
I knocked on her mum's bedroom door.
She opened the door and smiled at me.
"Oh, hello Cassie!" She croaked.
I could smell the tobacco smell in her mouth.
"Be- B- Beth won't come out from the ba- bathroom." I  stuttered.

She got out a gold key and went to bathroom, I was so worried I felt like I was about to faint. When she opened the door I saw Beth lying in the bathtub in her pyjamas, she was dead, she had slit her wrists so bad that it had killed her. It filled the water with blood, dark ruby red blood.

My eyes couldn't unsee the things I had seen, it was like a blur it all happened so fast that I couldn't remember certain things that happened.
I wanted to go home. But it was 2 hours away and I couldn't leave Beth's mum alone.
Beth's mum just cried, she kept crying and crying, "Why? Why Beth!?" 

And then I saw Beth's phone, it was buzzing bright with notifications and I looked at Beth's mum and she looked at me; the emotions on our faces were blank, I wasn't angry or afraid, I was sad so sad that I couldn't move, but I did.

I picked up Beth's phone and saw the alerts, there were videos on snapchat, instagram and facebook, some people were posting stuff; I immediately knew who did it, Aubrey. She hated Beth for most of the year, because she was an 'ugly skank' but she was drop dead gorgeous. She was pretty enough to be popular.

I saw the videos. She was calling her names and telling her to 'go and fucking kill herself', "I'm so sorry." I
wept, "It's my fault."
Tears streamed down my face and then I fell to my knees.
I scrolled down and saw Kendall and Alison making mean comments, 'FUCKING DIE YOU SKANK WHORE' and 'Nobody likes you cause you ain't got a daddy.' I scrolled and scrolled until I saw Matt telling her, 'Go back to clown town you freak.'

I cried, and Beth's mum cried. It was sad to see from her point of view. But then I realised this doesn't have to happen, because the day is going to repeat. I can finish this, I can stop all the pain and suffering for everyone.

And I didn't know how, but I know I can because anyone can do anything if they put there mind to it. I smiled at Beth's mum, "It's going to be okay."  I put my hand on her shoulder and gave her a hug. 
I can change it all. I can finish this.