Fragmented (A ThirBea Story)

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/Bea/

I woke up remembering the conversation I had with Thirdy last night. It was so refreshing to talk to him once again. I'm overjoyed by the fact that nothing has changed between us despite the circumstances. We're still the same Bea-Thirdy match that almost everyone 'adores'.

I know most people are wondering what happened between us. We were actually pretty close back then. It just vanished somehow. I don't know how. I don't know why. There's one thing I can't deny though; what Thirdy and I had was special. I didn't know where it was going, but I was the happiest at that time. And I'm sure Thirdy was happy, as well.

Yes, I am still waiting for Thirdy. Surprising 'no? Hahaha! Well, you can't blame me naman. Thirdy was one of the very few guys that liked me not because of 'fame'. He was there when I was lowkey, undiscovered, invisible. He accepted me for who I am, and most importantly, he accepted my flaws. That's why he appears to be more beautiful in my eyes.

He was the only one who could deal with my clingy ass. My friends used to tease him, but he would just shrug it off and laugh. It was seriously the cutest. thing. ever. It was also the best feeling to find someone as competitive as you are. Thirdy and I would fight about the littlest things and laugh about it like 10 minutes after. He'd let me win most of the time, of course. "Oo na, Isabel. You win. Give up na'ko. HAHAHAHA," he'd always say.

It was always a fun time with Thirdy. He's such a ball of sunshine, and I am grateful that he was someone I could literally go to whenever something was wrong. It's really sad lang that the time we spent together was for a short while only. Maybe he was meant to make other people happy, as well. Hindi yung puro ako nalang. I can really see that Billie's happy with him though. I'm not giving up with Thirdy ah? I'll still be waiting. I may have feelings for him, but I still appreciate the relationship he has with Billie. After all, Billie was an old friend of my Kuya and I.

I opened my phone to check my twitter, and the first thing I saw made me sigh (and maybe roll my eyes).

"good luck later! @BillieCapis 🤷🏾‍♂️"
11/05/2017, 7:25 AM

I know I said I appreciate their relationship, doesn't mean I don't find it annoying though! Hay nako. Get over it, B. I thought as I took another deep breath. I don't mind. Thirdy knows what he's doing. It's up to him what he's gonna do about their relationship or whatsoever na.

I decided to get out of bed, do my bathroom rituals and go down to eat breakfast.

"Good Morning, Bei Bei! Do you have any plans for today?", Mom asked as she sat down in front of me to join me in eating breakfast.

"Hmm, no naman. I'll stay home muna, and I'll just let you know if ever there's a plan that will come up later," I responded.

I finished eating my breakfast and decided to go back to my room. Whenever I had a rest day, I would always do the usual aka binge-watch Friends until I would want to read another book.

A couple of episodes have passed already, and I just realized it was 1:20pm already. I was making my way to the dining room once again to eat lunch when I received a notification from Prince, Thirdy and Jules. Seeing the people involved made me open my phone as quick as I can to check what the fuss was all about.

@priiincerivero: Hi @_beadel 👋🏻🙈
@ThirdyRavenaaa: ayy nako prince
@julessamonte: AYEEEEEEEEEEE hi ate bey hahahahahaha

I don't even know how to react to this.. My close friends would know that I never liked being teased to boys. Might as well reply to Jules' tweet nalang, baka mapahiya si Prince if I don't eh. Kawawa naman, lol. I'm surprised that Thirdy replied, to be honest. He must have heard about the party the other night then? Meh, bahala na siya.

It was always like this with Thirdy. Sanay na ako with this kind of set-up. He's gonna make paramdam, make me feel like he still has feelings, makes a lowkey move to secure his relationship with Billie and pretend I don't matter at all. I get inis all the time, but I get over it right away.

✺✺✺

/Thirdy/

"Buti naman you decided to tweet me this morning," Billie annoyingly said as she went in my car.

"Sorry, Bills. I didn't know people would react that way with Mama Larz's ig live," I replied in a lambing tone.

"Eh what about your answers to the questions, ha? Ba't parang kinilig ka when you answered them? Do you like Beatriz? Akala ko ba 'it was nothing' for you lang? Does she affect you in some way?", she responded as she raised her voice.

I stopped the car and turned to Billie.

"Bills, you're the one I'm dating, okay? I'm pretty sure you know that already. What kind of assurance do you want pa ba? I do everything you say and ask me to do naman. Isn't that enough? I already told you nasasakal na ako, but I still try to understand where you're coming from. Can we stop fighting na, please? We always fight about Bea. Can you move on?"

"Okay, fine. I'm sorry na. I guess I just got carried away. I'm used to your 'shippers' naman na eh. It's just that I can't help but still feel jealous from time to time. I missed you, T. Can I get a hug?", Billie said in a soft voice.

I gave her what she asked for and went on to drive to a nearby restaurant. I won't go into detail, but the night went on normally. Just a typical date with Billie. I was so used to doing this every week that I couldn't feel the spark anymore. Was there even any spark in the first place?

I need to sort out my feelings before the bonfire. I have to talk to Bea about this. It's gonna be Friday tomorrow already, and I thankfully have the whole day to think about this.