I just want some sleep. I can't stop thinking about you. I miss the way you held me and looked at me. They gentle kisses and the hopeful future. But you were never in love with me. You were in love of who I wanted to be. And because I couldn't do that you left. Just gave up. I smiled today because I remembered the taste of your bottom lip. I hope you read this one day. I hope six months down the road you think you made the right choice loving someone before yourself. A part of me will always care for who ever you grow up to be. There's a part of you I'm dying to hold on too. Because I used to love you more than me. I hope you had fun with me, and I'm sorry you lied and hurt me. And the pictures of us from us is all you want to hold on too. I don't have that much more to say I don't want my words to get in your way. But you're one person I'll always miss. And thank you for letting me grow. I keep something you gave me addressing your love but that's the issue. What's there even else to say. But I really did and still do love you thank you for everything we did together you were my best friend and I could never thank you enough for being apart of my life. But I'm doing this for me as a good bye. In my head I'm still with you. But it's sad to think you've already moved on. I just hope your happy later in your life. I decided I'm going to become a professional photographer. I'm going to business school to have my own studio and shop.. it's a bit of a reach and you believed in me at one point that made me think I could do the impossible. I'm sorry for trying to contact you this way. I'm not doing okay. But I'm strong and I'll make it okay. I love you for helping me become whoever I am now. But I'm deleting this account and other places so You will no longer have the same problem with me. But I hope you know I still think you're going to be an amazing dad and husband one day. You're a different person and I liked that about you. I know you can do anything as long as you try. You're so smart and amazing. And I'm sorry for anything I have ever done to you to hurt you. I'm sorry to you allies as well. None of us deserved what happened and how it ended. And I'm sorry for my last words. I hope you read this far. But I really do appreciate you. And I know your going to be amazing, no matter who you turn out to be. ........................Best wishes, Maja.
