Lying here saying softly to myself it's not your fault. As repetitive as a old record on repeat like my relationship with him. The melody always perfect and the bass always on beat. But the words changed constantly and that changed my world. Many times over and over again. The words make me cry and laugh and be hopeful. Only to know that this was expected again because the record always starts over. It's just that when you restart it, You never know where you'll put the needle. It's always a fresh start. And then you remember the words from the previous song wishing they would change like they did before. But when the song ends and you pick up the needle, you'll know the words never really changed you were just living through the same song in different parts of your life that gave it different meaning. The words never changed, they just never left you feeling the same.
