Don't Believe In Love II

14. A Stronger Love (3/4)

Breaunna.

I stood by the door with my hand covering my mouth as tears fell down my face. I cannot believe he just said that to me. What did I ever do to him?

The door opened and Zonnique walked out the room. She looked at me and shook her head. "Bre, why are you crying?" I began crying harder and went in for a hug from her, but she slightly pushed me away. "I can't hug you?" I asked, tears streaming down. "Nope. You got what you had coming for you." I furrowed my eyebrows. "What are you trying  to say, Zonnique?"

"Jacob only reacted the way he did because you pushed him to that. Ever since he got here, you've done nothing but treat him like shit, Breaunna." "But I--" "I am not finished." She said sternly. "Now you have a right to be upset with him. He hurt you, and I get that. But sis, let it go. It was four years ago, and he has tried apologizing and righting his wrongs multiple times. You are just so damn stubborn, and it pushes people away. Now that he's not with you and your shit anymore, you wanna act shocked and play victim, but it doesn't work like that. So you need to apologize to him and accept his apology. I don't know when but it needs to be soon. You're ruining relationships because you don't know how to let the past be the past."

She turned and walked right back in the room. She's right. I've gotta stop doing this to him. Truth be told, I still feel the same way I felt about him four years ago. I was just scared that I'd be ridiculed to succumbing to his old ways. Today I planned on telling him how I felt but it looks like I won't even get the opportunity. He Hates me now and it's all my fault.

I wiped my tears on my shirt sleeve and walked back in the room, but Craig wasn't there. "Where is Craig? He was just here." I asked. "You didn't see him on his way out? He literally just left. He's being transported to another hospital." Zonnique said. I grabbed my stuff and started to walk out, but she grabbed my arm. "What? I've gotta get to the other hospital." "He doesn't want you to go Bre. He knows..." I turned to her. "Did you tell him?" "Nope. You did." I put my things down and sat in a chair under the TV.

"Well, I'm going to check on Amani Reese...Bahja would want us to." Zonnique said as she got up and left. Now it's just Jacob and I. He was watching TV, but he would glance at me every now and then, catching me stare at him. "What?" He said sternly. "Nothing, I just...can I tell you something?" He rolled his eyes and muted the television. "What is it?" "I haven't exactly been honest with my feelings." "Pertaining to whom?" "You." He just looked at me with a blank stare. He slowly sat up while wincing in pain. "What exactly are you trying to say, Breaunna?" I sighed and walked over to him. "I'm in love with you, Jacob. I really am. I didn't wanna be honest with myself until I realize I almost lost you last night...Jacob I am so sorry. I want us to work past this." He chuckled and turned the TV off. "You're too damn late. I have dealt with you pushing me away for so long that my feelings for you have slowly deteriorated over time. I would say 'I'm sorry', but I'm not. I've had my fair share of hurt form you; now it's your turn." He turned away from me and pulled out his phone. I grabbed my things and ran out of the room once more. I can't belive this happened.