i never thought i could never feel this kind of pain. this true kind of pain. as days went by. we laughed and exchanged words like it was friendly. comfortable but uncomfortable. catching you stare at me. giving me signs. it was a sweet tease. but you were always the one letting go. ignoring me from time to time. showing me that we had a special connection, but then being with another girl to show me not likely. you're not the one. a hurtful thought like a broken record. this pain. the pain of you realizing but choosing not to feel it, to feel me. it was a poison inside me. killing me slowly with each passing day. the pain was there. i knew it was. probably all along. but knowing that, if i told you how i really felt. that's when it'd take my final breath. when knowing you'd deny my love for you and leave me there to subside, while i would lay down my life, for your own sake. for a boy, who'd never love me, the way I did for him.
- what was your first crush like? well..
