Entwined (highschool destiel au)

Chapter 3

Dean's POV

I open my eyes suddenly now realizing what I have been doing for about 2 mins with Cas.  I pull back all at once, and look at the shocked and disappointed new student in front of me.  Thoughts pass through my tensed brain as the awkward tension between us grows with every pained second.  Why was i just kissing another boy, sure he's cute, WAIT STOP IT BRAIN, you don't think about othr GUYS like this!! What will Dad think when he finds out what you've been doing with another male!  GOD IT'S REALLY HOT IN HERE! WHY ARE THE WALLS CLOSING IN ON ME!! I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!! But what do I say to Cas? I don't want to lose him as a friend.  But maybe if I forget about him, these strange feelings will leave with him... SHIT! 

"Umm.. Dean, you okay?" Cas said concerningly, putting is free arm that was just a few minutes ago around my waste pulling me closer, on my shoulder. I unknowingly cringed at the electricity of the contact, and slid out from under it.  "DDean..." Cas said with a tinge of hurt in his voice.  I saw the tears well up in his eyes, and I thought I saw one glide down his flushed cheeks before I say "I'm sorry Castiel, I am NOT gay, and I don't have feelings for you!" He stepped closer to me, and I staggered backwards.  "Just stay away from me!" I yell as I stormed out the door, and I pushed my way through the crowded hall, for the bell just rang.  

I got to my baby in the parking lot, and sat in my beloved car before I just broke down in tears.  I texted Sammy that I was leaving early and that he should get a ride home.  He soon texted me back as I pulled out of the school parking lot, and headed straight towards the place I go when I need to clear my head.  

"Sure I got one with this new kid, Gabe. You okay?" 

"Not really, just had to get out of there, LOTS of stress."

"Okay feel better..."

"Thanks Sammy"

"Jerk" 

"Bitch"

I smile as I get done texting my little brother our nicknames we've had since forever. I needed something like that to get my mind off of my gay experience. 

I pull into the empty field where many of my fondest memories resided.  I practically burned down this lot with Sammy once, and I got laid for the first time in this field.  This is where my mom took me on a picnic once before she died, and we went swimming in the lake adjacent to the field.  I learned how to swim in that lake. I learned how to shoot in this field.  I felt safe here, and I felt calm here.

I took out the blanket out of the trunk that I keep in there, and laid it on the Kansas prairie grass.  I look up at the cloudless sky, and see the blue sky.  The bright, blue sky reminds me of Cas's eyes, exceot his eyes were bluer.  I shook my head.  No, stop thinking about him. YOU ARE NOT GAY.

I got up and pulled out the hidden bottle of whiskey I keep in the side pocket of my car, and take a huge swig. I feel the warm, brown liquid cruise down my throat.  I drank until I couldn't see straight, and the world started spinning. Then I closed my eyes and drifted off to a deep, gay thought-clustered, slumber. 

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Here's my update ;)

Next Chapter will be in Cas's POV