The Piece Of Trash's Rant Book

Why?

Why did I trust her?
Why did I think she had changed?
Improved?
Why did I think...

That things could go back to how they were before?
She knows how it feels; So why does she still do this?
I know I shouldn't be like this, I shouldn't be jealous.
But shouldn't she know of all people that I have no other friends in my class besides her?
Didn't she say that her old best friend did this to her?
Then why can't she see that she's doing it to me?
Why does she lie so much?
Why does she lie to act like the good guy when she's already proven to be the opposite?
Why can't I be happy for once?
Why is her leaving me....

Like a stab to my soul?

Ah, why does it matter?
School's ending soon anyways
But why can't it end today?
I hate this.
I hate this.
I hate this.
She knows I suffer.
She knows my secrets.
She knows everything.

Then why did she turn her back on me again?

I'm truly alone.
I have only one friend in school.
And she's not in my class.
It may not truly be, but I feel...
alone.

But this begs the bigger question-
Why does she hate me?
Why does she take her away from me?
Why does she feel the need to pull her away from me?

Am I really that horrible?

I knew it all along.

I really am the Expendable in this story.

I'm sorry if you think I'm just asking for pity. But I'm not. I should have known that none of my friends could last for more than a year.

I hate this all.

From A Few Minutes Later - sorry if this format is copied, I'm too tired to even care anymore. Anyways, thank you so much to anybody who chats with me on here. I really appreciate it...