woe·ful
adjective
1.
full of woe; wretched; unhappy: a woeful situation.
2.
affected with, characterized by, or indicating woe: woeful melodies.
3.
of wretched quality; sorry; poor: a woeful collection of paintings.
my life is full of woe , unhappy living . no im not blaming others for my unhappiness . i blame myself , for ruining my own life . for ruining others lives . i blame my unhappy living on me , being me .
i dont want to be this way . i dont want to feel like someone who ruined someone's life i dont even want to feel like i ruined my own . but there's nothing i can do , i'm living life like in invisible , numb . i'm walking , sleeping , breathing , swimming , living and nobody notices it . you can say i'm invisible , you can say im irelevent , an outsider , or a nobody . you'd all be right , thats me Emilia Burns , another depressed 16 year old , i go to a regular high school which i hate . i have no friends not even one . i'm average on grades ( if you count 60 's average ) i come home right after school , i'm obsessed with tumblr , it tells my story .
why do i hate myself ?
i'm a disappointment , i can never get anything right . everything i do is never good enough and it will probably never be good enough . i can never get my grades up . im not good at sports . i'm anti social , i can never live up to my parents expectations . hell i wasn't even smart enough to keep my parents around from when i started high school . my mother ? who knows where she is , i lost all respect . my father ? never met . they left because i was never good enough for them . i dont even know why i care so much , i care way too much about peoples opinions and their thoughts but i won't even give myself a second glance , nobody does .
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authors note //
☠ the chapters will be longer .
☠ this novel is based on life , mine & others
☠ playlist & other story stuff will be the next chapter
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