Womb for Rent

Chapter 5: Running Away

Logan: Sorry baby, I was at work, super busy today... I'm just chilling now. 

I knew he was lying to me. He texted me back (well Angel back) while he was right next to me. It would be so funny if he knew both Jade and Angel are the same person. Shit, what if he finds out? He would probably tell the whole entire school that I was a whore sending nude pics for any guys to see. Fuck, I'm gonna have to move to Mexico and change my name. Why... why did he have to start paying attention to me now. I was perfectly happy being the school wallflower, just an observer, now I'm going to be the school slut. 

Plus if he found out it was the real me, he would judge me. I start to panic and switch between looking at him and looking at my phone. I cannot have him ruining my life, I can't take all of this, especially after my parents what happened to me with my parents. I can't do this to myself, not now.

I decided to start to pack my shit so I could go home and think of a better way to approach this situation. I make up an excuse to leave, " Hey sorry to leave like this but I gotta get home. My grandma's going to be looking for me." not the best excuse in the world but I didn't care. I continued to pack my things and slowly got up from the forest floor. As I was about to walk away I turn back to him, "I'll see you on Saturday, ok?" I don't want him to think I'm acting super weird. If I act weird, he'll know something is up and ask more questions. I just need to get home and think. 

"Yeah, Saturday," he said back, with excitement?? That's weird. I shake the thought from my head and start walking out of the forest trying to contemplate how to fix this mess. I keep thinking of different ways to break contact with him. Maybe I should just block him on my Angel Snapchat.... but I don't want to because I love the way he makes me feel when I am Angel. It's not like he's interested in Jade, he's interested in Angel. 

Angel is the part of me I wish I could show to people. She is the person that I want to be, but at the same time, I'm not confident enough to act so courageously and snarky. Angel is the secret me that hides behind my dorky glasses and I wish I could just be her but I'm too scared. I continue to walk to the school parking lot and hop into my car. Thank goodness Arden got a ride with his friend today because he would be asking me so many questions. He knows when something is wrong and he is relentless when he wants to know the truth. 

As I'm about to start driving I decide to text Logan back on my Angel profile so he doesn't think I'm ignoring him. 

Me: It's ok baby. I'm on my way home from my friend's house, want to call me.

Logan: Sure baby girl. I'll call you in 20 mins. 😇😇

This is not good, I shouldn't be with him, what if he finds out... but maybe he won't because he's been clueless this whole time. Maybe I can just get away with it for now since high school is ending in a few months and I'll never have to see him again. It's better that I just keep this virtual, have a few more great times over the phone, and then part ways. WOW... I sound like a total whore but I want to keep talking to him, I want to keep hearing his voice... his moans... ugggghhhh STTTOOOOPPPP... don't make yourself horny while you're driving you crazy F*CK!

I try to concentrate on driving home and not on logan but he said he was calling me in 20 mins. Shit, I have to mentally prepare myself. I cannot tell him the truth, I just have to lie. Plus it's not like he'll ever find out, he's a typical jock... he'll just have some fun with me and part ways with me for sure. That's the right way to go about this. I won't get hurt, he won't find out and we'll have a few more sexy talks and life will move on.... right???

RING

RING

RING

Let's do this... I picked up the phone. "Hey, baby," Logan said. His voice was so velvety and smooth, it immediately gives me butterflies and makes my nipples harden, how does he have this much sexual control over me. I've never felt this way for anyone. my heart is beating so fast.