Logan's POV
Hearing Jade's voice after almost 4 years sparked something inside of me that I thought died the day she left me. It was faint and almost nonexistent but it compelled me to suddenly invite her out to lunch. I had told her I needed a favor, which wasn't exactly the opposite of the truth but I never thought she would actually agree. It was ironic how we reconnected pretty much the same way we met back in high school, and it made my heart clench when I heard her say my name, like a hidden sirens call, urging me to see her again. To have her enchanting brown orbs look deeply into mine and make me feel safe and whole again.
Sitting on my bed with my head in my hands I try to calm the feeling of my heart beating heavily against my chest. For so long I have hardened myself to everyone around me except for my family and Nathan. Theresa stopped talking to me the day after Jade saw me with another woman, telling me that I had just made the biggest mistake of my whole entire life, and believe me I knew it. When she left it was like she took my entire soul with her as I had just been an empty shell before she walked into my life. I fell into a toxic and harmful path and started drinking, not sleeping, throwing myself into school, work, and sports. For 3 years I just continuously slept with anything that had legs and I treated them horribly, not remembering their names, yelling at them to get out if they stayed over for the night, treated them like sex dolls instead of human beings... I wasn't me anymore.
Looking back on those years I see that I didn't even recognize myself... and I think that was the point. I blamed the person who I was for doing that to the only person in the world who brought me happiness and I tried to get rid of him, pretending he was dead. It had gotten so bad that I was almost kicked off the football team for being drunk during the semi-final game. I didn't have much to live for anyway so I didn't really care at the time... Dad was sick, Jade was gone... mom couldn't even look at me anymore... hell I couldn't even look at myself anymore.
I was lucky they forced me into rehab during the summer of my third year in university. The football coach made a deal with my dad and told me that as long as I got my shit back together by the time the new season came around, he wouldn't kick me off the team. I didn't care at all... I just did what everyone told me to do and somewhere along the way, I got better. It was hard fighting the withdrawal and it was hard being away from the people I loved, but rehab gave me time to think about my feelings, to actually absorb them, and comprehend what has happened to me these past few years. I realized that the drinking game was just an escape and throwing myself into school and work, was a facade to make it seem like I was ok... but deep down, I knew I wasn't.
After 4 months, I came back out being Logan again... the Logan I was before I became self-destructive and numb towards everything and everyone around me. Luckily, my dad kept my time in rehab out of the tabloids and I was able to completely recover without anyone even noticing. I went back to school and made up with Nathan and Theresa. I became MVP in my final year of university and got offers to join the NFL from multiple teams but I declined them all since I was the sole heir to my father's businesses and he needed me. My drinking stop, I started treating women right again, and I put my heart and soul into work. But still, I knew something was missing and after hearing Jade's voice again, I knew that it was her. She was the missing piece to this puzzle, she is my other half, she is everything I will ever want or need.
I peak at the clock and notice that it's already 4:45 PM. Crap, I might be late!
Leaping out of bed, I quickly take a shower and shave to ensure I didn't look like a zombie from the walking dead. Then I decide to put on my grey suit with a black dress shirt, keeping the first couple buttons undone to leaving out a necktie so that I looked more casual since we were only going to a diner. I didn't want to leave the impression that I was trying hard to look good for her, I didn't want her to feel pressured by me. Gahd sometimes I overthink things too much.
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Womb for Rent
Romansa"Jade" he said formally. "Logan" I replied back with the same tone. "I need something from you." he said and reached out to my hand to touch it. I flinched away and he held back. "My father, hes dying, and he wishes to be presented with the next...
