"I love you" he hears her voice cry through the radio. It's been 2000 days since Praimfaya and every single day, Clarke has hopelessly radioed Bellamy, without ever getting a reply. They should've fixed the damn radio by now but not even Raven could do it with the lack of materials in the ring. Every day Bellamy waited by the radio for Clarke to call, just hearing her voice was enough to give him hope.
"I love you too", he whispered back as she went silent. He searched his mind, trying to remember something about Clarke; the colour of her eyes, the scent of her hair, anything he used to know. But as the days grew longer, those details that were once tattooed in his mind, faded away. A tear rolled down his cheek, as he struggles between an ocean blue or a bright blue when remembering her eyes. He has a breakdown like this almost every week.
He gathered himself and then when Clarke no longer spoke, he put the radio down and started heading out. Until he heard one last desperate plea;
"Bellamy?", Clarke said, "If you're still up there, if you're alive, please know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry I took you for granted, I sorry I never told you how I felt, I'm sorry that.... we didn't get enough time. But I want to have more with you, more firsts, more moments. And if by any chance you are listening, I need you to know, that I'm not giving up. Not now. Not ever.", he smiled slightly.
"I love you", he whispered, sobbing into the radio.
"I love you, too", she responded. Bellamy' eyes shot up instantly, she heard him.
"Clarke ?", he yelled. And no response.
"Princess?", still no response.
"I'm sorry, I just have to pretend that your up there, saying that you love me, it's all that's keeping me sane. So um, see you tomorrow", she says. He felt deflated and happy at the same time, an oxymoron. On the one hand, she loved him but on the other, she still couldn't hear him. Eventually she went radio silent and Bellamy left the com room heading to his bedroom where Raven was waiting for him.
"There you are", she says, "What are you doing up ? Come back to bed" he crawls into bed and Raven snuggles up next to him.
"It was Clarke wasn't it ?", Raven asks him, he nods his head,
"I'm sorry, but as long as she's down there, I can only have feelings for her, I love her, Raven", Ravens face grows sad, but she understands. He loved her for so long.
"You'll see her again, Bellamy. I promise. Only a few more months and we'll be on the ground", he nods.
"Thankyou, thankyou for being here", Bellamy says genuinely. Raven scoots over a little removing her arm from Bellamy.
"Please, stop with the sad show, it's not like I don't know that you're thinking about Clarke when we're having sex", Raven says spontaneously, causing Bellamy to laugh slightly.
"Hey, I am sorry, but don't pretend I don't know you're thinking about Murphy, you're not so innocent", he responds. Raven hits his arm and laughs,
"Shut up! Oh my god that was secret information and I told you to never bring it up again", they're both laughing now. A good way to end the day before they both eventually drift off to sleep, waiting to do the same things tomorrow.
i know that that oxymoron was more of a juxtaposition or something else but it was for the sake of bellarke okay ?😂
