I dont know how long we were in the car, I just remember falling asleep and waking up to car doors slaming.
"Lucas" i yawn sitting up to a very green forest.
"Hey sleepy head were here." He says smiling with his big beautiful smile of his.
We get out of the car and start to set up our tent.
Putting up tents are alot harder then you could imagine. It took us plus 2 other guys doing all the work to put it up.
By the time every thing was set up and the food was cooked it was already 9pm.
Jason said goodnight to us and left.
Then it was just the two of us. Lucas and I.
The last time we were left alone with a bed things got heated.
We headed inside the tent and sat down to some music from his phone. He was playing his favorite song. I couldn't help but humm along it was so nice.
He smiled at that and kissed me. "What" i laughed.
He pushed a strand of hair behind my ear and said "your beautiful".
I smiled and kissed him again. Then the missing led to more. Way more. For the first time ever, i understood the pleasure of sex and more.
(will add a chapter of the sex if i get 1k comments)
He did in fact remember a condom if that's what your thinking. I'm so glad so brought more then one.
The next morning I felt different. Like really different. I don't know how to describe it. Last night felt so right but now if feels so wrong.
I watched him smile and roll to his side. He was so happy. Why am I not rolling in happiness. The first time I had sex with Mason. I could not stop smiling for a week. Why am I not happy. Maybe Masons right I just got bored. Maybe I am just doing this for the chase and now that I got the kill i'm sad because I chased something I shouldn't.
I think back to the times of Lucas and I and all the fun we had. Like the time after the cafe when I promised Lucas that I was 100 percent done with Mason and I am not. I still love him. Mason may be a lowsy date and bad at sex but hes funny and tries his hardest to be the best man he can be.
With Lucas though, he was just a stranger. Who reads romance and is funny and charming and everything I ever wanted. He had that mysterious vibe that drew me in. Not only is his personality great his body is better. The sexiest body know to man. That I just had sex with.
I.....just had sex....with Lucas.
Someone who is not Mason.
Someone who is completely in love with me, I betrayed for a summer fling.
Well not a fling because I really love Lucas, but I've always loved Mason.
I have to tell Lucas this. This is wrong. I shouldn't have had sex with him or did his kissing experiments, or even kissed. This is so wrong. I should not love both. Its not fair to Lucas. I have to leave him and not look back. Ill make him hate me so a girl can love him with all his heart and not just part.
I hopped out of the sleeping bag and started packing my bag. I walked out of the tent and went strait to Jason's.
"Jason I need you to drive me back to the apartments." I said in a rushed low voice.
"What, why are you ok? Wheres Lucas?" He says yawning.
"Forget Lucas, you can come back for him. Just please can we go?" I said basically pleading on my knees.
"yeah, sure just let me grab my keys from my friend Charles bag" he said as he left.
I am such a coward. Poor Lucas. He is going to hate me. Ill text him why I left.
NO, he will come looking for me.
Ill leave a note with Jason to take back, so by that time Ill be long gone. Yeah.
I hopped into Jason's car as he starts it.
We leave. I leave. Its the only way. Ill just tell him that I used him. I never loved him and thanks for being my rebound.
That will make him leave and not look for me or find me because if he did I don't think I will be able to leave him again.
I am going to marry Mason and that's the end of it.
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As I reach the hotel I see Mason sitting in front of the door.
I run up to him and kiss him hard and start crying.
"I'm sorry of course Ill marry you."
He smiles at my words as he pulls the ring out of his pocket and puts it on my finger.
I turn to see Jason frowning.
"why the frown Jason, i'm engaged." I say smirking knowing already what hes going to say.
"What do I tell him?"
"Tell him... I am eloping and that I want him to move on and to be happy and move on with out me. Tell him I am marrying Mason and that I loved him and to not look for me or I wont go through with it."
Jason nodded and left.
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I have not seen Lucas since that night in the tent. I read the Sold for Love book that he said is his favorite time and time again. Grasping for memories of us. I did elope to Mason. My mom and Jason showed to watch the amazing event. After we married we moved back home and Mason bought the restaurant we use to eat at. Life is good for the most part when I am not thinking of Lucas. Well that is until I found out I'm Pregnant and its not Masons.
